u/Long_Bookkeeper_9466

ok hi this is a throwaway if it wasn’t obvious bc this is way too embarrassing to put on my main where I comment on cat pictures T-T

Anyways I don’t know if this is a thing or a common kink or whatever but I have a low to no sex drive and I… want that to be changed I guess? Like people always say I’m asexual or something and even if I was the thought of going from asexual/not interested in sex at all to constantly thinking about it I think would be interesting. I didn’t even know sex was a thing until my junior year of college and even then I didn’t understand the appeal. Masturbation never feels great to me, I have toys that people say are amazing but they’re always kind of boring. It’s like it feels weird/tickly for a little bit and then it’s gone. The only thing that gets me turned on is the thought of being forced to orgasm or so overstimulated that it feels so good it’s like I’m seeing god or something. I’ve seen people actually orgasm in videos and it looks so enjoyable and idk what I’m missing out on. I’ve read hentai of like an older dude dominating/railing a younger woman and turning her into a slut (I think it’s moral degradation or smth) and I like that but I don’t know if that’s a thing that actually happens.

I don’t get horny randomly it’s always a conscious “I’m gonna try again” effort. I never get turned on or find people attractive/hot. I don’t know why, everything is normal down there and I never dated anyone because I don’t know if I could even kiss someone. I don’t know if it’s a fear of intimacy or uncomfortable or what lol.

I swear I don’t need therapy LMAO my lack of horny doesn’t affect my life much at all but I do sometimes wish I knew the hype. So that’s what I’m asking.

Important note: I am not really looking to meet up or anything at least until I’m back in college. I live with my parents so that’s …. impossible lol. If we talk for a bit I’ll probably send a pic but I won’t to just anyone because it would make me paranoid that I’m gonna get like spotted irl. But appearance wise I’m plus size (currently trying to get down to my GW), I’m wasian but don’t look it, I have freckles and dark hair and like hazel eyes. I have 42 DDDs lol

In my free time I like… uhhh… napping? Doing homework?? I’m kind of a nerd lol I just like being good academically and making ppl around me proud. I never knew dating or sex or masturbation was even a thing for years bc I was so focused on getting into a good school so like 😭 oh but I like cats and gardening I’m very plant mom. Also I like sonny angels and cute things hehe

I am looking for someone to corrupt me, to drop me in the deep end of sex and kinky stuff and all of that because I know none of it. I looked at the barbieacademy subreddit and I don’t know if any of it is real but something like that. I appreciate someone who’s gentle but I think for this I need someone who will ignore my fears/excuses/protests and keep going. Expose me to it until I don’t even realize I’m cumming my brains out every day and don’t study anymore. I need someone older and more experienced in this who is fine dominating and even if I’m nervous or anxious still pushing anyways. Like someone dirty with not my best intentions in mind, more like molding me or turning me into what you want.

I’ve started having dreams of stuff like getting plowed by frat boys or smth crazy so idk if I’m just ovulating or what lol.

The only hard no’s I have is anything that would involve pain like slapping, choking, spanking etc or unsanitary stuff bc I have OCD :). And don’t be like… mean. Like playful degradation is fine but actual degradation just freaks me out lol. Also I’m almost done w/ my degree so class and work come first! I will probably be fine with pictures if I get comfortable you down the line. And since I mentioned I’ll be at my parents for the summer I would prefer to talk first and then once building up trust meet up.

Thanks!!! Hopefully this doesn’t pop off lol I’m packing for the summer rn so don’t expect fast responses.

EDIT: if your reply doesn’t have any detail I’m not gonna respond, I typed a bunch least u could do is say smth other than “hey” lol

ok hi this is a throwaway if it wasn’t obvious bc this is way too embarrassing to put on my main where I comment on cat pictures T-T

Anyways I don’t know if this is a thing or a common kink or whatever but I have a low to no sex drive and I… want that to be changed I guess? Like people always say I’m asexual or something and even if I was the thought of going from asexual/not interested in sex at all to constantly thinking about it I think would be interesting. I didn’t even know sex was a thing until my junior year of college and even then I didn’t understand the appeal. Masturbation never feels great to me, I have toys that people say are amazing but they’re always kind of boring. It’s like it feels weird/tickly for a little bit and then it’s gone. The only thing that gets me turned on is the thought of being forced to orgasm or so overstimulated that it feels so good it’s like I’m seeing god or something. I’ve seen people actually orgasm in videos and it looks so enjoyable and idk what I’m missing out on. I’ve read hentai of like an older dude dominating/railing a younger woman and turning her into a slut (I think it’s moral degradation or smth) and I like that but I don’t know if that’s a thing that actually happens.

I don’t get horny randomly it’s always a conscious “I’m gonna try again” effort. I never get turned on or find people attractive/hot. I don’t know why, everything is normal down there and I never dated anyone because I don’t know if I could even kiss someone. I don’t know if it’s a fear of intimacy or uncomfortable or what lol.

I swear I don’t need therapy LMAO my lack of horny doesn’t affect my life much at all but I do sometimes wish I knew the hype. So that’s what I’m asking.

I am not really looking to meet up or anything at least until I’m back in college. I live with my parents so that’s …. Yikes lol. If we talk for a bit I’ll probably send a pic but I won’t to just anyone because it would make me paranoid that I’m gonna get like spotted irl. But appearance wise I’m plus size (currently trying to get down to my GW), I’m wasian but don’t look it, I have freckles and dark hair and like hazel eyes. I have 42 DDDs lol

In my free time I like… uhhh… napping? Doing homework?? I’m kind of a nerd lol I just like being good academically and making ppl around me proud. I never knew dating or sex or masturbation was even a thing for years bc I was so focused on getting into a good school so like 😭 oh but I like cats and gardening I’m very plant mom. Also I like sonny angels and cute things hehe

I am looking for someone to corrupt me, to drop me in the deep end of sex and kinky stuff and all of that because I know none of it. I looked at the barbieacademy subreddit and I don’t know if any of it is real but something like that. I appreciate someone who’s gentle but I think for this I need someone who will ignore my fears/excuses/protests and keep going. Expose me to it until I don’t even realize I’m cumming my brains out every day and don’t study anymore. I need someone older and more experienced in this who is fine dominating and even if I’m nervous or anxious still pushing anyways. Like someone dirty with not my best intentions in mind, more like molding me or turning me into what you want.

The only hard no’s I have is anything that would involve pain like slapping, choking, spanking etc or unsanitary stuff bc I have OCD :). And don’t be like… mean. Like playful degradation is fine but actual degradation just freaks me out lol. Also I’m almost done w/ my Bach so class and work come first!

Thanks!!! Hopefully this doesn’t pop off lol

EDIT: yall ruined this and made me not want to talk to anyone on the internet anymore •_•