u/Loose_Caterpillar465

To the fking bitch from CDO,

I hope this message gets to you. You have no idea what you just got into. I don’t want to blame you and I blame my bf for it.

But boy do I want to blame you for messaging that mf randomly one night just because you were fking horny. It was all going well but I know that this dickhead couldn’t also control himself lmao. Pathetic. I know you checked in a bnb in Cebu IT Park Avida Towers. 05/25/26. You messaged him late at night while he was playing games. I caught him book a ride to and from yours AHHA. Fucking shit man.

I know that you’re on insta, because you messaged him there. I also know that you met him years ago on reddit before me and his previous but never met up. Since I wasn’t able to get your handle I fking hope that this gets to you.

And i’m letting this out so I can get some closure and have my answers. I just want to let you know how much of this shit has affected me mentally and physically. I hope karma does it’s work to those people who hurt me. I have so much anger for him and you, but can you actually blame me? Fk no hahah. I just fucking hate that you had to go for mine. Well if you can take him, he’s all yours. GOOOO AHEAD. Lol I don’t want that easy mf.

FK YOU BITCH AND TO THAT ASSWIPE CUNT.

Imma send one pic (not nudes), dm me a lil intro or smth and why you’re interested and worthy haha, send teegee.

Don’t send unsolicited pics pls thanks.

I know i am pretty in my own way and i may look different compared to the normal builds or girls out there because of my athletic nature and how I am built. I constantly go to the gym and being athletic was a big part of my life.

But man it sucks to be treated this way and I’m constantly doubting myself especially with pcos/pmos, and I keep looking at myself in the mirror wondering if someone will ever love me for who I am or if I will ever measure up to the other girls that he cheated with.

I’ve become so insecure to the point where I wish I wasn’t morena, I wish I wasn’t built this way. I fucking hate cheaters.

I used to love my skin color, my body, I even used to tan alot but now it’s different. I just feel so fucking down and disgusted.

But on the other side I do know my own beauty and my potential to be the best version of my self.

Edit: I appreciate the msgs, can’t reply to all.

*rant

I hope karma gets it. IT.

Fuck u fuck u fuck a million times. I truly loved you and yet here we are.

I wanted to stay and be with you for as long as you are here.

To the women out here i hope you know what you’re dealing with. If i could kill, this would be it.

We shared so many things together and spent time together. I loved every moment of it. What can I say? I just love you, no one will like i would.

I don’t know what to do anymore. I hope you know how much i cared for you. I may have not shown all of it but it is way beyond that. I did what I could.

I just wanna be gone now, off of the face of this planet. Drift away in my sleep or float away from space idk get me out of here.

To the people who’d reply to this post. I already know what you’re gonna say.

Love you. -J