Took a week off and I’m realizing how much I rely on the club for my mental stability.
I really need this shit for my mental health idk if anyone else can relate. As much as it can break me down sometimes it is a love hate relationship. Money aside sometimes I really do need the flashing lights the outfits and being around other autistic hot girls lol.
So I took a week off to go see my family and also the city where my sister lives in. My friend set me up with a guy and we seemed to have hit it off spent 2 nights together and then he didn’t rly wanna talk to me after so I had to sit in my childhood home for a week fucked yo over it. (where I went thru a lot of trauma) doing nothing and I really could have used the club as a distraction. I’m so sensitive and anyone I open up to and doesn’t work out feels like physical pain in my chest.
I feel like I actually belong at work unlike any other place on earth. My mental health got so bad at home that I came back early but I came back in the 2 days we are closed. I can’t WAIT to get back in there cuz I wouldn’t have been ruminating over this guy for the last week if I was working 🙏