u/LucidxDeity

Please take a moment to think when the last time you drank water was, and eaten something and slept...please drink some water if you can't remember the last time you hydrated, and/or if your sweating a lot while aboard this fast moving crystal ship ...the crystal ship is filled with girls and thrills, don't forget to eat something as well ..if your struggling eating, hydrate first then eat something light and healthy..or anything really ! Any food is better than none ...sharing is caring, give back to others if you can, but take care care of you first ...the crystal rewards self care and self love...know yourself enough to know when you need a self care break...for me, I get super anxious and super irritated when I'm spun and hungry...Its hard to live my best life without self care...without self care, my drug use becomes drug abuse which translates to me abusing myself and a substance that responds to abuse with abuse...please, stick around a bit longer, you are loved and deserve the best from life, others and yourself. Never settle for good enough, you deserve better.

I'm super curious, and honestly I've let.myself be caught just to get an idea of how it must feel for her...and honestly, I've never had a negative response or reaction after being caught admiring someones looks

For me, people first always....that means myself and others over material things, for example...if someone asks me for water or food and I have it, I'll at least share and offer some...I enjoy the social aspect and ability to get stuff done...I don't like being easily distracted by pretty people though, I get to trusting and end up falling for the "wait right here, I'll be back in 10min" lip service but sometimes that karma comes back as a blessing...what do you enjoy the most out of this lifestyle being a meth user?

I am so sick of how careless, horny and unaware of my effect on others, while using meth...at first, I would use with a buddy and we'd split ways usually ...here lately, I've been disgusted with myself...I'm having a hard time coping with the aphrodisiac effect of meth on me when I'm using with a female...my eyes get glued to her body, my thoughts are filthy...and I've done things I'm not proud of..like today, while I was lighting the pipe for my lady friend, we got real close, and I allowed myself to give in and manipulate the situation by me gasping, fake panic about a bee landing on her back so she would turn her back to me so I could swipe it off her back (pretend to) just to panic and act like I missed but I got it this time, I said to her....don't move, and I gently tapped and squeezed her butt but acting relaxed and relieved that I got the bug away and save d the day ...she didn't seem to mind, but I feel bad...I apologized to her and acted dumb about it ..but I literally feel like I assaulted her...and the least I'ma do is apologize when I see her here in a few minutes, tell her she deserves better from me ..and if she wants revenge, she can get even with me however she sees fit...I'm getting mad at how I act while on meth man

I'm normally very uninterested in sex, unless we click as friends and can socialize no problem, and have a desire to be around each other as much as possible I may fall in love with her and then, I'll be interested in physical activity together...I can't sleep with a woman I don't have strong feelings for, I call it love...unless I'm on clear, how do you guys cope with the never ending horniness, I was hanging out with a fellow homeless person today but I was objectifying her the whole time and felt terrible...she told me I'm good, that it's ok to have intense attraction towards her because I'm not a weirdo, and she feels comfortable and safe with me ...she never pushed me away no matter what I said or did....I apilogized for getting us turned around while we were out because I was staring at her butt..lol she was adorable and said i don't have to say everything that comes to mind...im worrying to much...it's been along time since I've felt so attracted to a woman...ovwr two years..she wants to hang out together when i get paid, get smoothies and meth, and she said she'd be down to get high with me at a hotel room...at some point..I'm just gonna straight up ask her if there's ever a chance that I could show her what I can do with my hands and mouth, satisfying her will satisfy me...at the same time...I can't seem to shake off the horniness, or snap myself out of a weird trance of a beautiful woman is in my line of sight...I wish I could just have sexual release with one person ...no dedication just friends who help each other get high and feel sexually satisfied...this girls butt is so hot, omg...she was so cute, shed walk ahead of me on purpose just to look back and see if I'm checking her out...I got her candy, makeup, hygiene stuff and hair stuff today...for free, just because I like her and she deserves the best from others and her self...I'm obsessed, this is not healthy probably...I just really want a woman to display her naked body for me to look at while I jerk off ...I won't touch her or do anything unless she initiated it though ...I'm trying to think of a way to help myself without being a pig....maybe I should offer meth to a woman in exchange to be able to see her naked and jerk off to her