u/LustyLasagna_

I'm 19, in uni, still living with parents. I'm tiny (158cm), look younger than I am. There's this guy in my study group, 22, been friends for a semester.

Last week we were studying late at the library, one of those discussion rooms. Everyone else left. We were sitting close, shoulders touching, and suddenly he just kissed me. I was shocked but didn't stop him.

Next thing I knew I was on his lap—I'm so light he just lifted me like it was nothing—and we were grinding against each other with our clothes still on. He kept saying how he'd wanted to do this since week one, how he loved how small I was, how he could just pick me up and move me.

We didn't go all the way because the library was closing, but now every time we study together I can't concentrate. I keep thinking about his hands on my waist, his mouth on my neck. We haven't talked about it since but the tension is insane.

I feel like such a slut for wanting more but I can't stop thinking about it.

'm 19, petite (156cm), study at uni. There's this guy I've been seeing, 21, not officially dating but exclusive-ish. Let's call him J.

J is... different. He's submissive but not in a obvious way. One night after we hooked up, he asked me about my past experiences. I told him about a guy I was with before him. He got hard again just listening. Asked me to go into detail while he touched himself.

Now it's become our thing. I'll go on Tinder, find a guy, meet up at a hotel or his place (can't bring anyone home to my HDB, parents would kill me). Then I come back to J's place and tell him everything while he watches me. Every detail. Who was bigger, who lasted longer, who made me scream.

He loves that I'm so small and innocent-looking but "such a slut for other guys." His words. He never wants to reclaim me or anything—just wants to hear about it, watch me touch myself while I tell the story, then finish on my stomach while I describe the other guy's cum inside me.

I know it's weird but it's the hottest dynamic I've ever had. In public we're just a normal young couple. In private he's begging me to tell him how another guy owned his petite girlfriend.

I'm posting this because I need to get it out. I'm 19, 158cm, tiny, always dressed conservatively—my parents' good daughter, my friends' sweet innocent friend.

But I have this secret. I can't stop fantasizing about being completely dominated by someone who sees right through the act. Someone who knows that being called a "good girl" makes me wet, who wants to break me down until I'm begging, who'd pin my tiny wrists with one hand and make me take it however they want.

I keep imagining being picked up easily, tossed around, told I'm just a little fucktoy who exists to please. The contrast gets me every time. In public I'm studying for exams and being polite. In my head I'm on my knees with a hand wrapped around my throat.

I feel like such a slut for thinking this but the more I try to push it away, the stronger it gets. I just needed to confess this somewhere.

I'm the girl everyone thinks is so sweet and innocent. 158cm, barely 45kg, always smiling, always polite. My parents' pride, my friends' "cute little thing."

But lately I can't stop fantasizing about being completely dominated by someone who sees right through the act. Someone who knows that being called a "good girl" makes me wet, who wants to break me down until I'm begging, who'd pin my tiny wrists with one hand and make me take it however they want.

I keep imagining being picked up easily, tossed around, told I'm just a little fucktoy who exists to please. The contrast gets me every time. In public I'm studying for exams and saying "yes auntie, no auntie." In my head I'm on my knees with a hand wrapped around my throat.

I feel like such a slut for thinking this but the more I try to push it away, the stronger it gets. Anyone else deal with this? The innocent appearance vs. what you actually crave?