u/Madds115

I’m a 25 male. I grew up without a father which I think is what plays part in this experience and why it turned into me craving this attention and older men. I consider myself straight, but this has turned into a hyper sexualized kink for me in my private life.

When I was 17, I had a neighbor who was an older man (50+) who was always friendly and would wave when I walked by his house.

One day he was outside getting his mail and he stopped to talk to me. During our conversation he asked me if I liked video games, which I told him I did. He mentioned he had a new computer game that I absolutely had to try. I agreed and went into his house with him.

I sat down at his computer and started playing the game. He stood next to me randomly talking about the game. He kept getting closer to me, which I didn’t think anything of. Then next thing I knew his hand was on my thigh, slowly moving to the inside between my legs. I had short running shorts on with no underwear on and I immediately felt a hot sensation come over me and my penis began to throb. “Fuck” I thought to myself, doing all I could to ignore it and not get hard. I was humiliated and don’t want him to realize that I was getting aroused.

Then all of a sudden I felt his hand on my cock which immediately become fully erect and felt like it was going to explode. I was frozen and didn’t say anything. He then broke the ice and said “so, you are a little slut”. I was shocked, I had no idea what was happening.

Next thing I knew he lifted me up with a firm grip around my neck. He told me to get naked. I began begging him to stop, I was starting to panic, I tried to get away but his grip tightened.

At this point he pulled my shorts down exposing my hard cock. I continued to try to get away, but there was a part of me that didn’t want to. He pinned me against the wall hard and put his hand tight over my mouth because I was yelling at this point. I realized there was no way I was going to get away, he was much stronger and bigger than me.

He began rubbing my erect cock and then spit into his hand and began rubbing my little hole, I then left a finger slide up inside of me and he began fingering me so deep. He took his hand off my mouth and put his mouth against mine. I begged him to stop and begged for him to let me go. While I was begging he began licking my mouth and in between begs without me realizing I was sticking my tongue out and licking his tongue while I was being fingered.

He then pulled his finger out of me and dragged me to his room. He threw me onto his bed which had restraints attached to it and he restrained me to the bed.

I was broken and realized I was actually enjoying my rape. The feeling of having no control, being alone in this much older man’s house, and being so fucking exposed and vulnerable made me so horny I felt like I was going to pass out and was intoxicated with this feeling.

He then put a small pair of panties on me and said “you look so pretty”. I thought I couldn’t get turned on anymore than I was, I was wrong. He then put my legs up to my chest, got over top of me, and pulled out his thick cock.

He took a bottle of lube, pressed it against my hole and squirted an immense amount of lube inside of my hole. He then began rubbing the head of his cock around the outside of my hole. I was terrified, his finger felt huge; I had no idea how I would be able to handle his large cock. I begged him not to do it. He told me to shut up and told me that he knew i wanted it. He wasn’t totally wrong. Next thing i knew he was fully inside of me and thrusting so deep. I had never felt anything that good in my life.

He continued to thrust and without even realizing it I heard myself begging him to let me cum, “please can I cum? Please let me cum”. He laughed and told me to cum. I began having a full body orgasm and began squirting cum all over myself. Shortly after he grunted and I felt his cock pulse as he filled me up with his warm cum.

It was over and I felt humiliated. I expected him to let me go… he didn’t.

He left me wearing panties, restrained, cum leaking out of me and me covered in my own cum. He blind folded me gagged me, placed a vibrator inside of me, and left the room.

I began to panic, I had no idea what was going to happen. I was held captive for what felt like hours and spraying cum on myself multiple times from the vibrator inside of me forcing orgasms out of me.

I then heard the door open. He got back over me and began rubbing my own cum all over my body and was rubbing it all over my cock. He began licking all over my cum soaked body and started sucking my little cock. He stopped, and then proceeded to use my hole again to make himself cum.

After this was over he undid the restraints, led me to the bathroom, and bathed me in the bath tub. He told me then after I got dressed that he was going to let me go, but he proceeded to show me a video he recorded. On the video I was begging him to allow me to cum and begging him to fuck me, I didn’t realize I had begged him to fuck me. “If you tell anyone what I did, I have proof it was consensual, and you wanted it. I also know your mom well and this would be embarrassing for her”. I nodded my head and said that I wouldn’t tell anyone.

After I left this is all I could think about. I had moments of lows and moments of highs where I was unbearably horny thinking about it. It eventually turned into me being hyper sexual and I was horny all the time. No amount of masturbation placated it.

Then one day I purposely went back to his house, knocked on the door, and went inside. I continued to do this over the course of the year until I left for college. Each time I went over it got more and more intense, hard choking, piss play, abuse, spanking, different toys. He would completely feminize me and I loved the feeling of being slutty and feeling raped. I learned to love being submissive, held captive, and used.

I still think about it to this day and I cum so hard thinking about it and crave being raped so bad.

Edit:

All I can think about is being raped by an older man, I’m extremely needy and desperate to feel that again and to feel the lack of control and attention. Sometimes I wear little panties and touch myself while I imagine it and think about it.

My DMs are open to discuss this.

I want an older man to keep me tied up as a prisoner and rape me repeatedly for days. Filled with cum and cum rubbed all over my cock in my panties and all over my face and mouth.

Me (m) was raped by my therapist (m) (much older man 50+) when I was 18.

I consider myself straight but being submissive and having no control was intoxicating. I grew up without a relationship with my dad so having an older man desire me and give me this attention made my cock throb so hard.

I have never in my life cum as hard as I did when I was being made submissive and fucked deep. I didn’t even need my cock to be touched and I was squirting cum all over.

I still to this day touch myself and get off to the memories of being raped and how good and humiliating it felt.

Edit : adding more

I had several prior sessions with him and we discussed me not really growing up with a strong father figure and how it affected me.

One day I noticed that no other office staff were in the office. He invited me into the room and we began our session. At one point he got up and sat next to me on the couch. I didn’t think anything of it at the time. He then put his hand on my thigh and kept it there while we were talking. I noticed that he kept it there for a long period of time, but then he continued to slowly move his hand up and inside of my thigh. His hand was getting dangerously close to my cock and I started feeling a warm sensation and my cock began to get hard and throb. I tried to ignore it as much as I could so that my swollen cock would go down, I didn’t want him to notice.

Then before I knew it his hand was directly on my cock and he was squeezing it through my gym shorts. He looked at me and said “oh, I see now, you do need a daddy don’t you?”.

I was completely in shock and my body was frozen, I told him to stop, but he wouldn’t listen to me. Next thing I knew my shorts were on the floor, underwear was around my ankles and he was aggressively touching and groping me.

I continued to tell him to stop and tried to push him off of me. He tried to convince me that it was ok because “clearly you like it, look at how hard you are baby”.

He then pulled out his cock and forced me down on my knees and shoved his cock deep in my mouth. He laughed at me and told me I was a good boy. The praise sent me through the roof and I felt like I was going to pass out from how aroused it made me. I also felt humiliated being on my knees with my underwear still around my ankles and being forced to suck cock.

He then pulled me up by my throat turned me around and bent me over the couch. I begged him to stop because I knew what was next, by this point I had tears in my eyes.

He spit on my hole and I could feel his fingers probing it and rubbing my little hole. Next thing I knew his cock was slowly penetrating my ass. I continued to get and try to get away but he was much larger and stronger than me.

He then began thrusting in and out of me. I had never felt anything so fucking good. I wanted it to stop but at the same time I wanted it to last forever.

I was begging myself in my head to not cum, I was trying to do all I could mentally to not cum. I was so fucking humiliated at the thought of cumming from this man raping me and making a mess all over.

I then couldn’t stop it any longer. It was happening. My cock began to pulsate and I began spraying cum all over the couch. The orgasm was so intense that my eyes rolled back and I felt like I was high… I felt like I was going to pass out. Being stretched and filled up while cumming was the most insane orgasm I had ever experienced.

After I came I was so weak and he continued to use my ass, faster and harder. The feeling of an orgasm started building again in me. I felt so ashamed and embarrassed that I was being fucked by an older man, that I had a cock in my ass, that I had no control, and worst of all that I was fucking loving it and about to orgasm again.

At this point I broke and fully submitted. I loved what was happening. I began pushing my ass back on his thick cock, fucking back on it. I began begging him to fuck me harder, deeper, and told him not to stop. I told him that he owned me and said all sorts of other slutty submissive shit.

He was then calling me all sorts of degrading things and telling me what a slut I was. He then reached up and began choking me really hard. From my ass getting penetrated and the lack of oxygen I completely lost control, I was having a full body orgasm and once again spraying cum all over again. While this was happening he also orgasmed. I shouted please don’t cum in me, but it was pointless as his cock was already pulsating and I could feel him shooting his warm cum inside of my young ass.

He then pulled out of me and I fell back on the floor in a semi fetal position. Naked, still coming back from the two intense orgasms, feeling humiliated, and cum leaking out of my hole.

He told me to get dressed and I did. He then told me he video records everything and that if I told anyone about this that he had video of me begging him to fuck me deeper and harder and he would show that not only did I want it and it was “consensual” but that he would send it to my mom. I was a dumb young kid and I believed him.

After I got home it was all I could think about. I was masturbating multiple times a day thinking about it. I wanted to be raped again. I wanted to be fucked. I kept going back to therapy sessions with him, back knowing he was my rapist. They were no longer therapy sessions, they were rape sessions. Each time I went back it escalated more and more, each time it was more rough and violent, but it was intoxicating.

I still to this day touch myself thinking about it and I crave to be raped all the time. I crave to have no control and be humiliated.