u/MyqLowrey

I've been married a long time and my wife doesn't like me going down on her and I've always felt I must be really bad at it. It's something I've craved and i'd turned online to chat to other women about my fantasies and kinks as a way to express my desires, and lets face it, get some validation.

Eventually I found someone who I clicked with and after a lot of flirting in chat we decided to meet up after work one day. She had an apartment in the city so I made an excuse to my wife that I was going out for drinks and went and met up with this other woman. I'd been nervous all day... I knew exactly what was going to happen, and I still found myself drawn to that apartment.

After a drink my nerves dissipated and we started kissing on the couch while our hands roamed each others bodies. We stripped and my hand slid up her thigh like a magnet searching for what I craved.. I think I let out a soft moan as I found it. I started rubbing her as I leaned in to her and told her I want to go down on her. She knew my situation and was as eager as I was, and with an enthusiastic nod turned and lay back on the couch, opening her legs and inviting me in... I tried to keep my cool, leaning down to kiss a trail up her inner thigh as she watched closely. As eager as I was, I teased with kisses and touches before ever touching the target until she was thoroughly aroused with her hips grinding off the couch desperate to meet my face... and then, I savoured her.

Over the next two hours I learnt I truly do enjoy going down on a woman and the buzz that comes from drawing out orgasm after orgasm with my hands and mouth. The years of fantasising about it translated well into real life... it was a great time and I left with a boost to my self-esteem for sure. But now, I also know I want more...

M46, Married 11 years. I've always had a bit of a thing for secret flirtatious conversations online with people around the world, talking about fantasies and the like. I've always been upfront about being married which often lead to discussions with either married women also looking to flirt, or women who didn't care and actually got a thrill out of teasing and seducing a married man. Both were a thrill in themselves, which I think lead to something of a cheating kink. The urge to have these chats and more comes and goes, and really has no relation to the state of my marriage at the time... There is definitely a part of it that is looking for validation from others, which is often lacking in my marriage in general.

A particular strong urge arose recently that saw me sign-up to a hook-up site... it proved a good spot to find new people to chat to with the added sense of risk being that they were also local to me. I ended up chatting with a number of great women. The chats were flirtatious and suggestive, eventually turning in full-blown sexting and picture swapping, all of which was such a turn on!

Last week, the flirting and anticipation reached fever pitch and one of the ladies booked a hotel and invited me over. I wasn't sure if I was ready to take the big step but the chats had been such a turn on I just had to explore it further. So I went to the hotel, knocked on the door, and instantly discovered that the chemistry we'd built in chat was there in person too. The next two hours was some of the most passionate and explosive sex I have ever had in my life! We did things we'd talked about in chat, and many that were simply spur of the moment, all of which left us exhausted and grinning.

We've continued to talk, including looking for new opportunities to meet and have sex again. A couple of the other women have now also started lining up dates around their families calendar for a meet-up, and I feel like a dam has broken... The thrill of fulfilling a fantasy, and potentially helping someone else fulfil theirs, while also satisfying our sex drives, is so intoxicating! I know this is such a risky thing to do, but that just seems to make it hotter!

I grew up in a big family, always around young kids, and as I got into relationships I didn't feel the same pull to have my own children - I gravitated to women who also didn't want kids, both of us being very career focused, and it suited us to a tea.

Fast forward 20 years and i'm now in my 40's (almost 50s!) and my turn-ons have taken quite a twist. I find myself drawn to scenes of raw, animalistic sex, no protection, no pulling out ... my algorithm starting to be dominated by breeding, and women wanting to be bred. I can't help but feel like there is some deep seated biological imperative that has surfaced compelling me towards raw unprotected sex... to feel myself erupt while completely engulfed by the warmth of a woman feeling the exact same drive to breed.

I long to find others who are "struggling" with these urges... I put that in inverted commas because I have to be honest, I love it, the feeling of complete loss of control as your physical needs taken over completely in the heat of the moment, fuck the consequences, you want it, I want it, and we become a grunting, writhing mass of sexual energy as we orgasm while so completely connected. uhg ...

I'd love to hear from others who have felt the same, or even acted out on the urges, because lord knows its getting hard for me to contain to fantasy.