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I’m writing this with my toy in me, mommy is helping me keep my pussy and clit awake while I write. Everytjme I need to warn mommy that I’m getting close I have to scroll all the way back down in our messages from where I’m referencing our past sessions for the post, which means she gets to prolong my edging for longer.

After I was punished on Tuesday, mommy and I continued to enjoy our time together on Wednesday and Thursday. Like I said in my last post, I made a deal with her to give up orgasms until this weekend with at least 4 sessions of 15+ minutes of edging. Since I’m new to being denied, by Thursday I was feeling very needy and desperate.

On Wednesday, mommy helped me be productive doing laundry and getting ready for an overnight trip I had planned this weekend. We agreed to play for intervals like we typically do so that I could pause in between and check on the laundry. (Interruption to say mommy just started the meanest most teasing pattern on my toy and my hips are bucking allllll over the place so I’m sorry for poor grammar and general incoherence). At one point during our laundry date mommy was trying to turn the toy down after I told her I was close and she couldn’t so I had to hold. I was digging my nails into my thighs biting my lip holding my breath squeeeezing so hard and I made it luckily but it was so scary. Towards the end of our chores session I ended up hearing my timer go off and completely ignoring it because mommy was playing with me so good that I didn’t care about the dryer. Mommy ended up getting busy that evening so we ended our session there, but it was probably for the best because she had me so worked up.

On Thursday, mommy wore a special outfit for me all day and I was desperately needy all day after seeing it. She looked so fucking cute, it was a great reminder of how lucky I am to be hers and how important it is for me to be good for her. She gave me instructions of how to pet my clit for her at lunch time and I was so needy. I was circling it slow and tapping when she asked me to. My cheeks were super pink and I didn’t have a change of underwear with me so I was wet for the rest of the day.

In the evening, our schedules didn’t match up well so by the time we were catching up I was already fighting sleep hard. Mommy told me how to rub my clit for her and I kept dozing off with my fingers on my pussy before mommy would wake me up and we would go again. We ended up calling it a night after I dozed off for the third time, I felt really bad and also I was needy so I wished I could stay up longer but it’s so hard when I have to get up early and we’re 3 hours apart in time difference.

On Friday I was really hoping I’d have time to play with mommy before I had to leave for my little trip, but I was running late and didn’t get a chance. I was extra disappointed because it was supposed to be my 4th edging session I needed to earn my next orgasm and I was hoping I might earn it when I got back late Saturday (we had originally been planning on Sunday, but don’t worry there’s a plot twist coming :( ). While I was gone, Mommy and I agreed that I’d be no touch since we wouldn’t have the space or privacy to rub together. We flirted and talked about different kinks a lot which kept me needy, and mommy had me send her some embarrassing pictures in my bathing suit since I was staying in a hotel with a pool. Mommy also sent me pics back and all I can say is I am so so lucky I’m obsessed with you mommy thank you beautiful.

Most of the ride home on Saturday I spent blowing mommy’s phone up excited to get home and be alone with her, but that excitement ended up screwing me over because somehow I agreed to another week of denial instead of getting my orgasm today (Sunday) like we originally agreed. That means I’ll be doing two weeks instead of the one we had originally planned. I know that might not seem like a lot but for me, just starting out, that’s a huge commitment. We discussed it and this past week of denial is the longest I’ve ever intentionally or unintentionally been denied. I’m a very needy girl so this next week is going to be… hard. If anyone has any encouragement they want to share I’d love to hear it, but I know my mommy will get me through this.

I’m really glad I have another chance to be her good girl even though I’m regretting giving up my orgasm today. We played last night before bed and I woke up a huge mess, maybe my pussy remembers our agreement lmao. While writing this I edged 4-5 times with mommy but have had to finish the last few paragraphs on a little break because I was too worked up and distracted to get anything typed out. Now I’m waiting to see if she will have time to play before I leave for some plans. I love you mommy, I have a surprise for you too. I’ll show you as soon as I can, hopefully the next few days 🫶🫶

When mommy and I got the notification that my Lovense toy was on the way, she decided I should be no touch until it arrived. Since we had been edging a lot during the week, mommy told me that if I was good and didn’t touch, I’d earn an orgasm when my toy arrived.

It came on Saturday, and so did I :) we had a few drinks and mommy set up long-distance control to test out my toy. It’s a rabbit style toy so it has an internal g-spot vibration and a clit vibration (lovense osci 3) that can be separately controlled. I’ve used other toys before of course but this thing is already the best I’ve ever used after only 2 sessions and it’s not even close. Even starting really soft and slow, I could tell that we were going to have an intense session. After mommy warmed me up and I was soaked, we started to really push the vibe settings. She would turn the intensity way up and push me right to the edge, then turn it off completely and leave me squirming. When I was really close, she would have me count to 15 and give me a break then count to 10 and give me super intense vibes then back to a 15 second break.

Since mommy and I started being dom/sub, I’ve had so much fun listening to her instructions, but nothingggg compares to giving up control to her. Even though it’s easier to message with mommy when I’m not in charge of touching myself, I was still sending her needy incoherent messages that barely even made sense. So many times I was close, trying to type to let her know I was on the edge and she turned the vibration off before I even pressed send. She’s so in tune with me, I’m so so lucky.

When mommy started to get close, it pushed me over the edge of being so desperate. I was begging her like crazy to please let me cum with her and she told me I wasn’t allowed to talk about coming at all anymore unless it was to warn her I was close. Of course, i immediately broke mommy’s rule and started begging for her to let me cum. Mommy told me I had permission then immediately turned off the toy. She actually let me cum a few minutes later and overstimulated me for a few minutes after I finished because it made her feel good. I was shaking and trying to squirm away from it, typing insane incoherent nonsense asking her to stop.

I showed mommy how much of a mess my pussy was a couple times, and it was embarrassing looking at the pictures before I sent them. I was completely soaked, dripping down onto my bed and all over my thighs. The toy was also soooo wet, so much that I dropped it a couple times because it was so slippery.

Mommy told me she wanted us to cum together again and I was excited and nervous because I was already feeling super sensitive. I let mommy know when I was close and she said I wasn’t close enough, I got to practice holding the edge for her so I could earn an orgasm with her. When mommy finally gave me permission and we came together it was one of the most intense orgasms I’ve ever had. I was begging her to turn the vibration off, especially on my clit, but she told me no and that I needed to take it like a good girl.

I owed mommy another orgasm as punishment and she told me I wasn’t allowed to have the toy off, I needed to give it to her back to back. It was so intense to keep taking it after I came so hard but a deal is a deal and I needed to be a good girl for mommy. I sent mommy a video of me squirming and whining when I came but I accidentally unsent it because I’m still learning how to use the app ( I felt so bad she was so disappointed and I sounded embarrassingly needy in the video). Mommy ended up deciding to save her last orgasm since I took away the video. Don’t worry mommy, I’m still planning on making that up to you, pinky promise 🫶

I slept so good and was still sleepy and achy the next morning. I told mommy I don’t know if I’ve ever felt that satisfied in my life and she said we’re just scratching the surface….

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Mommy and I got busy and didn’t have time to play on Sunday, so we decided it would be a no touch day. I was excited to get back to exploring my toy with her on Monday, and she played with me sooo good. We have a time difference between us, so mommy told me I should take a nap so I wouldn’t be too tired to play. She kept me on a more gentle setting for a longer time since I was sleepy, taking a little bit longer during edges but something about taking our time almost made me needier than quick and intense edges. During that kind of warmup she told me that if I fell asleep with it in she would’ve teased me all night long. I’ve never thought about being interested in sleep play but something about that idea turned me on so much. She also said at one point “don’t you dare cum” and I remember clenching so hard around my toy imagining her being strict with me.

After about an hour of edging and quiiite a lot of begging, mommy told me that she would make a deal with me. She said I could cum twice tonight and then give up my chance for more orgasms until next weekend if I really needed it that bad. I also owe her 4 edging sessions of at least 15 minutes in between now and then. Even though I was sleepy and edged out of my mind, I still think mommy offered me a fair deal. I said yes because I needed it so bad in that moment and mommy teased me for another minute before sending me over the edge for her.

Shes so cute, she told me she wanted to try and ruin me instead of let me cum but she felt bad so she made me feel good. I’m so lucky thank you mommy 🫶 I was beyond messy and satisfied after that so mommy and I agreed I only needed one, not two.

Mommy asked me to send her a video of me squatting down to put my toy back in, and I was embarrassed by it. After I sent the vid, mommy needed to step away so I made a bad choice to start playing around with some of the games on the Lovense app. I didn’t have mommy’s permission to be playing with myself so she was upset with me when she got back and found out I had been being selfish while she was gone. She let me dwell on the fact that I was going to be punished today (Tuesday) but made me wait and guess about what it might be. I also let slip today that I was smoking weed last night which I accidentally didn’t tell her. Between my two bad choices, I’ve been anxious and the tiniest bit excited all day to see what mommy has in store for me.

It’s now Tuesday afternoon and I’ve had my toy in the whole time I’m writing this getting teased by one of mommy’s patterns. I’m feeling helpless knowing that I’m not allowed to cum until the weekend and I’ll be out of town Friday and Saturday so it will probably be Sunday before I’m there again. I hope mommy knows how sorry I am for disappointing her and how much I am ready to make it up to her.

Edit: I just was about to finish the pattern mommy shared with me but my toy fucking died 3 minutes from the end. I’m so frustrated but mommy really loved it.

Before our third session, mommy and I talked about ways that I can earn an orgasm. She told me that I’d be allowed to cum that day if I finished writing my denial journal and posted it on Reddit (something I was avoiding because I was nervous haha). When she asked me to do that, I had actually already written it in my notes app, because even if I’m nervous it still feels good to listen to her. I decided I wanted to cum bad enough that I didn’t care about being embarrassed, so I posted it and started playing with mommy.

She told me to edge slowly, using my finger to tease my clit super slow. At one point, she needed to take a call so she told me to stop touching and wait for her to come back. It was a short call but laying there and feeling the cool breeze of my fan on my wet thighs was unbelievably hard. After mommy edged me enough to know I was wet and ready for her, we decided to set a rule that I’d be allowed to cum at 8:30, but my permission only lasted until 8:31. We made the plan at 7:15 or so, and she did nottttt take it easy on me during that hour. We also talked about how there was probably people edging and coming to my journal post right at that moment while I was squirming for her. Mommy told me that I could go as slow as I wanted, but I wasn’t allowed to stop unless I asked her nicely and got permission. I was so desperate and whiny by 8:20 that mommy considered letting me cum 10 minutes early. She gave me one minute to go fast on my clit and see if I could edge 3 times, then I would be allowed to cum, but I couldn’t make it on time so I had to keep rubbing until 8:30.

Those last 10 minutes were fucking torture and I had to stop so many times so that I wouldn’t go over the edge.

When mommy finally gave me permission to cum for her, I was shaking and squirming so bad. Mommy asked me to take a video for her so she can see the mess I made for her and I had to wait for a minute to be able to take it because my hands were shaking so bad.

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The next day (yesterday) I knew would be tough since I got to cum the night before. Mommy and I talked on and off all day, keeping me super needy. I showed her the wet spot in my panties as the day went on so she could see how bad I was needing her. She told me to go to the bathroom and walked me through an edge midday. During that break she teased me about how embarrassing it would be if she told me to cum right there. My cheeks were so red when I left the bathroom that I had to open the window to cool down quick.

I was excited and also apprehensive when I got home because like I said, I knew I wasn’t going to cum. Mommy told me she wanted us to drink together, so we both had drinks and shots while we were teasing.

While we were talking, I mentioned to mommy that I’ve been thinking of getting a new toy for a while and she suggested a lush. Ultimately we settled on the Osci 3 (I can’t fucking believe there’s toys with a heat function, I had no idea). Ive been tracking the order like crazy since I placed it because I’m so excited for mommy to control me.

After I ordered our toy, we started to play. Mommy wasn’t playing around, she told me to put my vibe on high on the tip of my clit right away until I was so close, then count to five and again. We did the same thing again and I counted to six. I was squirming and squeezing my thighs together after that, so we took a little break to have shots and then started again slow. I told her I didn’t have much longer before I needed to go to bed and we agreed to set a time limit of 20 more minutes. She edged me 3 more times before we started getting close to our time limit, so she pushed me hard with the vibe before time was up.

Mommy told me she came a few times while we were playing and it’s becoming our cute little thing for me to say “I’m glad you came” and for her to respond “I’m glad you didn’t”.

Since I’ve been so sensitive, mommy decided today should be a no touch day. We’ve been chatting during the day and mommy asked me to tap my clit 5 times to make sure she was awake but otherwise, I’ve been hands off. Even though I’ve been pretty untouched, I had a big wet patch in my panties that I showed mommy after work. I can already tell it’s going to be hard to fall asleep tonight but I know my mommy will take care of me. Hopefully I wake up to a shipping update that my toy is on the way! 🫶🫶🫶 @agathadom2323

After a long time of just scrolling and rubbing to the female denial community, I finally got brave enough to reach out for help controlling my pussy. I saw my dom commenting on some of the posts I was rubbing to, and I couldn’t resist messaging her. In the past, I’ve been interested in trying denial but every time, I end up letting myself cum because I’m not good at being patient.

Now I’m lucky to have my mommy helping me. After I messaged her, we tried out a first session where she helped me edge a few times for her. Since I’m soooo bad at self-control, I ended up begging enough that mommy let me cum for her. I was so greedy and I was in such a rush that she didn’t have time to cum. I felt so bad afterwards that I left her needing more. The next day, mommy asked me to edge for her in the morning and afternoon. I was so disappointed that we didn’t end up getting a chance to play together that night, but I waited for our next session to touch again.

During our second session, mommy let me know before hand that I might not be allowed to cum at all that day. She asked me to rub slowly for her, and I edged several times just slowly stroking my clit. When I was needy and squirming on my bed, she let me use my vibrator to put inside me but I wasn’t allowed to move it or turn it on, just squeeze around it. I was so wet and messy that it kept sliding out of me. When she told me to stop after edging that time, I had to ask to take it out because it was too much. I was so desperate for her when she told me to wait and count to 30. In between each number, mommy reminded me that I’m her good girl to edge however she wants.

Mommy decided she wanted me to go to bed needy and wet for her, so after my last edge she told me to stop touching and write a denial journal post. I don’t ever post or interact on Reddit, so I was nervous, but here I am, letting you all know how needy I am and how good my dom makes me feel. I’m luckyyy @agathadom2323