I have given up trying to fight it. I know I'm messed up. I know my hypersexuality has a grip on me I can never stop. I know that the dark thoughts and desires I have will never go away. I'm done fighting it and denying my true self.
I just can't deal with this crap anymore. I hate being hypersexual. I hate having dark fantasies. I hate feeling so messed up.
I'm hypersexual and spiralling. When I spiral I go to dark places in my mind.
I've had some people here I've chatted with about our mutual kinks and it's helped until it hasn't.
This is hell. I'm lost in this darkness. There's no way out.
There's nothing like being hypersexual to make you aware of just how lonely you are. Or is it just me? I hate it! Surely I'm not the only one!
My HS is out of control tonight. I'm going crazy. I can't turn my mind off. This is bad.
I have a cycle of loving and hating my hypersexuality. Today is a day I'm loving it. Revelling in it and sinking deeper into my thoughts.
I know in a few days I'll hate it and hate myself. But today I'm riding the wave.
Does anyone else go through this cycle?
My dark thoughts kick in when my hypersexuality goes into overdrive.
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Lately, that's been happening constantly. It's like nothing will ever stop these thoughts. I know they're only thoughts but it's really messing me up.
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Does anyone have any ways that work to free yourself of these thoughts? Please and thanks
Recently it's been tough but tonight is on another level.
It's like nothing can take my mind away from sexual thoughts. I just want to sink into the abyss.
How do people cope when nothing works? I'm going crazy.
When my hypersexuality really kicks in I get a wave of depression. I'm talking crippling suicidal depression.
It's a cycle I've had my whole life and I can't seem to stop it.
Does anyone else get this? How do you cope?
When my HS really kicks in, my darkest desires come out. The kind of things you wouldn't tell people about.
I hate myself for having these thoughts but I can't help it.
Does anyone else experience this? How do you cope?
I've been in a very dark place recently. I feel like my brain is completely broken.
When I'm like this I revisit past trauma. And my hypersexuality kicks in. And I hate myself.
But I can't stop it. I'm screwed up. Can anyone else relate to this? I don't know if I'm even making sense.