u/No-Independence-8619

Ive been maatrubating with clitoral stimulation, as im scared to insert, (i dont know if that matters but i feel like i should mention it) and 2 days in a row now ive gotten extremely close to orgasaming, but my whole body just stiffens up and im no longer close to orgasaming. Im wondering how to get over this? I havd no sexual trauma or anything of the sort, but i do have anxiety and autism.. so i have bas sensory issues and anxiety about them.. im wondering if that has something to do with it? Im just confused and frustrated. Ive worked hard to get comfortable enough to mastrubate, but its hard and im just left unsatisfied and frustrated with myself... i know this is a bit of a ramble, id just love some advice.