u/No_Chance8024

I haven't had much experience in either case but I can still recall those moments with my ex when we used to get intimate 6 years ago but after that I sexted with many girls and tried to have sex but couldn't achieve that blank state of mind when you think of nothing but how hot and sexy your partner is and you're in that moment with her. I have not experienced it again cause I am single. Those who have experience of both casual sex and with their partner while being committed to them, which was/is better experience for you and why?

So I have been talking to a girl for the last few months and recently we started sexting and roleplaying. Now she has agreed to be in dom-sub dynamic and she said I can use her however I want and make her do things like I'm her master and call her names and humiliate her. Even though I have kinda read about these kinks and I'm liking it but I haven't done it much with anyone that too continuously for a week and we will keep extending it if she likes it. I don't know what names to call her and how to make the best use of this time and how can I make it more exciting and thrilling for both of us? Also, if there are any different subs especially for kinks, let me know. TIA! :)

After years of watching porn to kill my boredom and loneliness, I have become desensitized to it, that's why watching it doesn't make me as aroused as it used to. I just see a set of performers and creators to do something but there's no connection there. I am also tired of sometimes sexting with strangers online cause it is just a timepass for them as well and then I get ghosted.

I am also not in a phase of life where I think I can be in a committed relationship with anyone due to how much emotional, psychological and physiological energy it takes to live and adjust yourself according to each other and unrealistic expectations, heart breaks, insecurity, etc all comes in there. That's why I don't want any drama in my life. I like my peace but at the same time, I feel like I should have someone whom I'm not dependent on emotionally and psychologically and it doesn't require too much effort to build a connection with each other but at the same time can cater to each other's physical needs like in a casual relationship of FwB but to have someone like that, I need to build that level of trust and communication and at least resonate intellectually with that person to feel that connection.

I used to consider myself demisexual but not anymore cause I can still fantasize and want to be physical with a not so close person but at the same time, there should be some connection. I mean I'm not saying there should be only romantic connections but more like how our personality and thoughts and values and desires align with each other. I did find a few people here and there suddenly but as usual due to long distance, I couldn't meet them and got ghosted so I'm kind of again stuck watching porn and pretending like something is there but I know it is just fake. I want to find someone irl but most of the female friends I have, they are either committed, not interested in casual or we don't talk because of different lifestyles.