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I‘ve hinted a few times to my boyfriend that I have this particular kink, but I’ve never been able to fully open up about it. He hasn’t really shown any signs that he’d be into anything like this, so I usually just keep it to myself.

The more I keep it bottled up, though, the more intense my fantasies have become, and I honestly wish I could share them with him.

One of my biggest fantasies is him cheating on me with an attractive woman. I imagine him having anal sex with her, then coming home and having me suck him clean without telling me where he’s been or what I’m actually cleaning off.

Another fantasy I have is him reconnecting with an ex and sleeping with her. I even imagine her taking his phone, recording videos of them together, sending them to me, or FaceTiming me so I have to watch.

My boyfriend (24M) and I (21F) have been in a long-distance relationship for almost three years. He’s extremely attractive—tall, broad, fit, and he’s always had a lot of attention from women. Most of the women he dated or slept with before me were the complete opposite of me: they usually had lip fillers, breast implants, and a very polished look, while I’m completely natural.

At the beginning of our relationship, I was incredibly jealous of his past. But somewhere during these three years of long distance, that jealousy slowly changed into something I never expected. Because we couldn’t be physically intimate (I‘m still a virgin), I found myself thinking about him more and more, and eventually those thoughts started revolving around his past and different scenarios involving other women. The more I imagined them, the more I realized they were turning me on instead of upsetting me.

I kept asking him about his previous experiences, even though he was always hesitant because he thought it would hurt my feelings. In reality, I found myself wanting to hear more every time.
Now I’ve realized that what really turns me on are fantasies centered around him being with other women. The thought of him cheating on me excites me. I also get turned on by the idea of him watching porn or thinking about his ex-girlfriends or previous sexual partners. It’s less about simply watching and more about imagining myself being powerless or unable to stop it. I even asked him once if he still had any videos from his past because I wanted to see them, but he told me he had deleted them and said he wouldn’t send them to me even if he still had them.

I’ve only admitted to him that hearing about some of his past experiences turns me on, which already surprised him. He still feels uncomfortable talking about those things because he doesn’t want to hurt me, so I’ve never told him how far these fantasies actually go. I don’t want to pressure him into anything, but I’m curious if anyone else has experienced a kink developing like this over the course of a long-term relationship.

My boyfriend (24M) and I (21F) have been in a long-distance relationship for almost three years. From the very beginning, he was always honest with me, so I’ve always known that he had a pretty wild past before we met. It definitely shows too—he’s extremely attractive, tall, fit, and very experienced when it comes to sex. He’s had a lot of sexual partners.
I’m the complete opposite. I’m still a virgin and I’ve never even had my first kiss.
At the beginning of our relationship, I was incredibly jealous of his past. But after about two years, something changed. I became more and more curious and started asking him about his previous experiences. Eventually, I even found myself fantasizing about them.
He always felt uncomfortable telling me those stories because he didn’t want to hurt my feelings. At the same time, I kept acting jealous because I was too embarrassed to admit how I actually felt. Deep down, though, I realized I enjoyed hearing about it.
Now it’s gotten to the point where the thought of him cheating on me is actually a huge turn-on. I casually mentioned to him once that hearing about some of his past experiences somehow turns me on, and he was really surprised. Even so, he still feels uncomfortable talking about it, and I don’t want to pressure him or openly admit just how much I’m into it now.