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Hi, Is this group just for sharing porn? I am looking for a group for relationship dynamics of Indian women and white men. Is there any such group? Feel free to delete if it is not the right place to ask. Thanks
It was just sexting which was already a step too much for me. We've flirted in the past, really just him and I've hardly reciprocated and tend to put an end to it. However yesterday night we ended up chatting with each other until almost 4 AM.
We weren't able to talk much for the last few days because of our schedules. So we made plans for a date night after husband slept. Yes I am aware I am not morally a good person. We had wine together chatting and flirting. We spoke of really going on a date joked of all the cover up stories we will need, what we will wear and what he wanted me to wear. I already get giddy with such talk because I have not gone on a date since year 1 of marriage and never been asked to wear something specific since when I was dating my husband.
We talked a lot of all the things we wanted to do and places we wanted to go. It felt wonderful. Usually I cut off whenever the conversation goes to anything physical but when he told me he would kiss me it just felt good. And the more he described it I just did not want it to stop. He asked me how I felt and how my body felt and insisted until I described to him. It felt like the first time I was scanning my body to how I reacted to everything I said. We exchanged a few photos of how we were at that time. Nothing nude or compromising. I think we were beyond any control after he saw how I felt under my top and when he showed me himself in his boxers. That sight is so fully still in my mind seeing a man how he felt about me. I needed the release he provided, it was like experiencing something completely basic and mandatory and felt out of the world. I now realize how much I have suppressed myself.
My only regret is just me being unable to openly express myself. I wanted to please him and I honestly felt so incapable. I am not used to using explicit words and I don't know why I always stop myself before saying what I feel I want with him. I honestly wish I could do more for him. He checked how I am doing today morning and I still feel the excitement of last night. He said he wanted to see me and is going to invite us for the July 4th celebration he is hosting. I really look forward to seeing him and wearing what he wanted me to.
Just sharing this because I can't speak to anyone about it. I have been involved in an emotional affair with someone for 3 months. He used to be my husband's coworker and now just friends and I've known him for over a year. We have hung out in groups as friends, hosted him for Diwali, New Years. Initially he was just my husband's coworker / friend like all his other friends but over time we connected. Honestly simply because he was genuinely curious about me and would involve me in conversations when we all hung out, curious about our traditions and life back home in India.
Nowadays we chat almost daily. I have been posting frequently on social media for his attention. It feels good to have someone available to talk to and who'll talk to you. I've known my husband for over 5 years (2 years married) and I've rarely had engaging deep conversations. I feel excited and eager when I speak to him. It feels good to know someone's interested. Though I try to avoid or deflect his flirty comments I crave for those. On the occasions we flirt I feel like a sexual being again. He is mature to know my situation and behaves as usual when we hangout in groups. I have never met him alone, though we talk about going on dates, date nights.
I know what I'm doing is wrong and not really the best person and should stop it. But he makes me feel desired and wanted and it feels good and like I matter. Not really looking for much advice but just wanted to share in hopefully a safe space. Thanks