u/Ok-Nail-2790

I dont pass and I never will, I've just kind of accepted it internally. I stopped trying to pass years ago, even though I've been on t for almost 5 years and had top surgery a few months before i started t. Ill forever be a little femboy at best, especially since im only 5 foot tall and can't grow any facial or body hair even with a minoxidil prescription.

Lately I've been fantasizing about a passing ftm guy dicking me down while making fun of how feminine I still look. Maybe hes been on t the same amount of time or even less then me and passes 100% in public. Full beard, hairy chest, the works. He makes fun of my bare body, my long hair, how i wear eyeliner, how i love being a bottom for thick cock. Maybe he makes me eat him out and suck his tdick, using my face to grind on, since its so perfectly smooth for his junk to glide across until he cums in my hair.

Was feeling horny and needed to shower anyways, so i got in the shower and lifted my hips above my head using the wall to hold my legs up. My huge tdick/clit was throbbing and erect and i was so horny I almost couldn't start peeing. But I had been holding it all day, so it was inevitable, and eventually my stream gushed out, spraying all down my body and into my face, pooling in my hair and getting it soaked. It tasted salty and a little sweet, probably cause i drank too many rockstars today haha. It was super yellow as well.

It was so hot, I edged in the shower while I was waiting for the conditioner to be ready to rinse out and now im humping a towel with a thick dildo in my cunt.

Ftm 20s

I was at the river today to sit by the water and work on some art but I brought a huge 44oz fountain soda with me, not even thinking about that you have to hike to the river spot and the bathrooms are by the parking lot. As the sun was beginning to set I started to really need to go, but i decided to hold it instead and finish what I was working on, telling myself I couldn't leave to use the bathroom until the sun went behind the trees.

I barely made it that long, squirming so hard it made it difficult to finish what I was doing but i did it. I stood up and gathered my things while dancing around to not pee myself. There were people nearby, not in eyesight but i could hear them down river. I couldn't hold it in anymore and let out a few spurts into my shorts, feeling the hot urine flood my underwear around my tdick. It made me instantly horny.

Leave no trace is important to me though, so I couldn't let out too much, plus I had to hike a half mile back to the parking lot, and it was still light out enough to see clearly, so other people would have seen. As it was, there was a dark spot in my crotch, but my shorts were already a darker color so it could be passed as a shadow.

I did make eye contact with multiple people on the way back though and gave them a friendly nod, which only made me more horny because of the piss in my shorts.

Finally I made it back to the bathrooms, which had a toilet and a urinal, in the same single stall room (unisex toilets). I dont normally use urinals because while I am on testosterone and have had top surgery, I haven't had bottom surgery, and I dont carry an stp. This time however because I was already feeling horny, and the bathroom was single person, I decided to use the urinal. I dropped my already wet shorts and underwear to the ground and held back my labia, pissing into the urinal.

Except, my aim isn't all too good, and I accidentally peed on my shorts around my ankles and my sandle as well. I was instantly embarrassed, because by now there was someone outside waiting for the bathroom (i heard them jiggle the doorknob), and it was super obvious that I had not only pissed my pants but had pissed them at the urinal as well. I made the split second decision to take off my shorts and get them more wet in the sink while I washed my hands before putting them back on, now soaking, because it would look like I had been in the river and not like I peed myself. It made me feel very horny now to be wearing them more wet, even though I knew a lot of it was just water.

The next person in line didn't say anything but I forced myself to make eye contact with him too and to smile politely as one does on hiking trails.

Luckily I keep a towel in my car for when I go swimming in the river, so i put that over my driver seat to absorb the water and piss while I made the hour long drive home.

I'm super horny now and rubbing my dripping cunt through my damp shorts on the bathroom floor while I type this.