Am I ready? Advice needed
Hi everyone. My girlfriend and I have had this fantasy for a long time, probably around six years. We've fantasized about it dozens of times, had a few light experiences on webcam/chat apps with strangers, and recently we started seriously looking for someone to make the fantasy real.
At first she thought it was weird, but now she fantasizes about it just as much as I do. A few months ago, we actually tried to set up a meeting with someone, but when the moment came, we both had doubts and decided to postpone it.
Now we've met a guy through a website, and she seems really excited about it, while I'm less convinced than I used to be. On one hand, I'm very excited too, but on the other hand (usually after post-nut clarity), I start worrying that this could ruin our 10+ year relationship.
I'm afraid she might see me as inadequate, or maybe develop feelings for the other person, or realize that something is missing in our relationship. I don't know if I just need to stop overthinking (which I tend to do a lot), or if, after all these years of fantasizing about it, I'm simply not ready yet.
I'd really like to hear your experiences and opinions. Did you have similar worries before trying it? Did things go as planned? Did it affect your relationship in any negative way?
(Sorry, had to use AI to fix my poor English)