Urges have been getting harder to deal with and i have to say it, although many people don't like it but reddit has a double sharp edge, it offers great support for people like us but it has been a trigger for my urges at the time even this sub
(No DMs , i am not looking to grow my urges more)
I am unable to escape my thoughts anymore, getting triggered at work , at the gym , at home ... before i had the work limit but since it has been crossed it became a total chaos in my head, hopefully i am succeeding at keeping it in my head and not taking any risks, and not letting it in while seeing my patients but the energy it takes to control it or deal with the guilt is enormous 😮💨
My posts here became a diary about my sex life😅, well it's my 5th post , i wrote before about how i felt guilty getting in with a colleague at work, i am still keeping myself away from it, but i can't hide that it happened another 2 times, and it just made the urges grow bigger, sometimes i wonder maybe if i didn't know sex existed maybe i wouldn't be that HS, i feel like i am getting more urges with every new experience i live , and it's a lot, it's like being already standing on a mountain of urges and they keep growing up , i feel like there is no limit to that and no ending 😮💨