I’m worried I got stealthed (non-consensual condom removal
I could really use some opinions because my anxiety has been bad. The other night hooked up with someone. During sex, he suddenly stopped. When I looked down, the condom was already off and in his hand. I remember asking him what happened because I was confused, and he told me he had just taken it off after he stopped. At the time i thought it was very strange and I tried not to think about it. But i keep replaying the situation in my head. I'd never experienced something like that before, so it really caught me off guard and made me start questioning whether I had missed something in the moment. I helped placed the condom on myself in the very beginning but when I laid on my back I was looking at the ceiling and then I closed my eyes to relax and try and enjoy it. Then a minute or two in, he stopped and that's when I saw no condom on. He was still hard and the condom was in his hand (I didn't see it though). I asked him where the condom was and all he said was “it’s in my hand”. When I asked him why he stopped, he said “I don’t want you to feel uncomfortable”. Which confused me even more because I literally consented to sex (protected though). I'm worried he removed it fast before I could realize right at the very beginning. I'm taking PEP for HIV prevention because I have bad health anxiety and I'm worried it was unprotected sex. I also took a plan B. I'm just worried I fucked up and he'll speak about me because I kinda freaked out on him (we are the same ethnicity). I think sex felt different too, but that could also be my anxiety talking. After months of celibacy, just wanted to enjoy sex and I'm left with this horrible feeling. I know I’m taking the precautions I can right now. But for some reason I am terrified of catching HSV2 from unprotected sex. Any thoughts? What are my risks? He told me he stopped (after asking him again), because he wasn’t ready for a relationship and stopped because “I deserve better”. Why does my gut think this is a cop out and he could have done something suspicious to me? I got baseline STI testing a few days ago. And I’m going to see my OB in 4-6 weeks. But the waiting game is killing me. One other option is that he was about to stealth me, not that he did already. But I’m not sure.