Am I being delusional!? I have to tell someone!
I CANNOT tell my friends this, so I am here to tell someone. And get opinions!
So, I have always had a bit of a teacher kink, starting off strong! I have had this teacher, I have been trying to ignore my feelings for. I had this teacher in middle school who definitely did some inappropriate things towards me, he would lean over me reslly closely, and once we were playing tennis and I was sitting on the ground watching because it wasnt my turn to play, and he ran for a ball than "ran into me" but leaned over me and his dick was basically in my face and then my face got red and he was like "oh your face is red!" And teased me. So this teacher I have now... I used to see him and be like god damn, that man is so sexy. And now he is like a dad to me which is such a weird twist, but then again sometimes I look at him and little too hard and I am just thinking god damn. Like, bend me over please.
Anyway, I have a really strong relationship with him. I talk to him A LOT, and I have caught myself staring at his chest hair because his button up isnt buttoned all the way up by one button. Today, I was talking to him and he walked by me and his arm brushed up against my chest and I tried to ignore it but I was set off. Like, if I was a guy I would be so hard. ANYWAY. Then I went in to his office quick and asked for some help on something, so a few minutes later he came out of his office and helped and stood right by me and then when he walked away his arm brushed up against my ass and I was wearing tight shorts and I have a fat ass. I am not one to be super focused on myself, and my quality but I am aware I have a big butt. So am I being delusional or like, is there something he is hinting at... ALSO, Prom just happend and he went to tbe grand march to watch and i didnt and yesterday he has said "I didn't see you at the Grand March, I was suprised you weren't there." You were looking for me?? And that isnt the first time he has brought up not seeing me somewhere. Everytime he goes into my work and I am not there he says "i went through and you weren't there!" Like, AM I BEING DELUSIONAL?!
Another side note, he says my name in a way nobody does. Like, seriously when he says my name. HOLD ME BACK.
THANKS FOR LISTENING TO MY RANT.