[m4f] porn relapse addiction
I’m a 37 year old role virgin with a tiny dick and I have a porn addiction. I really got in to porn after a friend of mine convinced me it was normal. It was a young woman I had s crush on. She was the girlfriend of a close friend of mine. We were some sort of a trio and I yes I had a crush on her.
She has a cute face and a lovely chest, shapely ass too and her thighs could cure depression. She was fun but also had a sadistic side to her. She loved to tease me, her being in an open relationship made it that much easier to tease me even in front of her boufriend.
I just loved the idea of jerking off to porn just cause she wanted me to so I did. And I’ve been addicted ever since. Her teasing me nearly every time I saw her made it harder to stop. It felt like she was actively giving me reasons to jerk off. One day when she was driving me home alone from a party she asked me if I jerked off to her and I said no. I felt ashamed even though the answer should have been yes. I regret it to this day but here we are.
Then I meet a different friend and she was a friend of a friend when I first meet her and she was really in to porn. And the way she teased me gave me brain and dick permanent gooner damage. I sometimes cant cum without thinking about a time when she teased me. She knew I was a virgin and it must of encouraged her to make my frustration worse.
I miss that… I try to stop jerking off to porn because it’s bad of me but a part of me does it just to taste the sweet pain of defeat and succumb like the pathetic virgin porn addict I am.
I’d love to talk to a woman about porn addiction and porn relapse kink. I’d love to share stories of our struggles, victories and sweet defeats. I’d also love to share fantasies about porn addiction.
I’m a huge porn addict so I’m always on. I love to chat so please send a message. And thank you for reading!