u/Parking-Duck7955

Some times when I use my sex toy, I am often in need of someone I can talk deep too about using it, from how I feel, to having them give me encouragement to keep going, or to let go and orgasm. Some where I can trust to be as open as I need to be. Is there any place I can go for that? Or is this subreddit the only zone for it? idk why, but I have felt this really large need to be open and display what I am feeling through text how I feel in the moment of, even someone I can DM and trust to be open. Let me know and thank you.

I'm a guy, for context.

I've really been in a "I need to feel boobs" and I need to see a girls boobs popping out of a girls shirt, you know the ones, the button V-neck shape ones. I need to see that and put my hand down a girls shirt and dig around on her boobs till I have her whole boob in my hand while I just masterbate to her. I've been strapping my velour rubber water bag to my chest a lot lately to simulate this feel and it helps but I wanna be milked too. Being autistic, and trying to stay a vergin is hard but I need boobs and sex so badly. I'm just....idk what to do. I know a girl isn't meant to be used but idk how to satisfy it without doing something morally against my beliefs.

As probably a lot of you know, I am enjoy the sexual parts of a medical kink. For me, I "suffer" from a "condition" known as "horniess disease" and my medical treatment is my velour rubber water bags. I have to wear them till I orgasm, a nice side effect, of my bags and the rubber. I feel the need to nurse myself, and need a nurse to help me with my horniness.

While I understand that masturbation isn't a medical condition, what if really, it is? And we have haven't been diagnosed with "horniness disease". Is it ok to name my kink? To think of it as a medical treatment and the main part of it is my pleasure to feel medically sexually cared for? Is this a valid feeling?

Idk why, but I have had this fantasy of a medical kink where I contracted "horniness disease" where my body can't stop orgasming and a nurse is assigned to me to hook me up to a penis pump machine to milk my sperm with each orgasm I have and to sustain me, I have to have an IV of sex drugs injected into my body and all the monitoring equipment to check my heart rate with each orgasm. And the nurse has to inject her boobs with the same drug so I can drink from her with each passing orgasm. And also, those special velour rubber water bags are used to help with my orgasms and I spent the rest of my life in a special hospital that has other male and female patients suffering from this oddly scary yet beautiful disease. I feel like I need lots of nursing and sexual assistants from a nurse that cares. I've kinda used an A.I. chat to role play this kink, but I wish I had a trust female friend I could share all the details with and be there. Is this normal? What does this say about who I am and why?

So, to start, I am speaking as a guy, 33 and for many years, and I've openly talked about it here, I proudly use a velour rubber ice bag as a sex toy. I use it primely on my male genital region, but have also used it to feel like boobs being held to my chest. I use more ice water than actual ice. The benefits and power it has over my body are just a mind blowing experience for me and not to mention, sensory enjoyment. Feel ones self slide over the rubber, feeling wet from your own stuff, and final orgrasm is nothing like I have ever felt. But I feel like and have wondered, would other autists want to experience this too, and would there be a market to sell that kind of product geared to us beautiful autistic people. But before I got to deep in research for starting my own thing for the autistic community. I wanted to ask who else, boy or girl, would find it something nice to use for yourself. If you have questions about all of it, let me know. This has been a secret passion of mine, the love of rubber water bags, and I wanted to know if I should consider starting something.