u/PastaProvolone

Ive had a girlfriend for the last 5 years. Im 37. I love her, but sex life is dead, and this seems to be the norm with women so my desire with them has dwindled.

So ive had constant thoughts of men for about a year now. They used to pop up every so often, but the last 3-4 months its all I desire. Ive downloaded and deleted Grindr numerous times. Its exhilarating talking and flirting with men and seeing their pics they send me, and me sending pics back. But when its time to actually hook up, my heart and nerves race to astronomical levels and I end up not doing it. I wish that I would, because I want a man so badly. I hate my nerves. I need to just dive in. Im going to tonight.