Emergency room gave diazepam during the worst moment of my life and it was heaven in hell.
So back in December I was hospitalized because of a stomach bleed caused by stress that the cops were any minute away from searching for my college dorm room for drugs and paraphernalia.
Long story but it involves meth and me actually throwing up blood multiple times, trying to find ambulance costs in my state online, and finally calling 911.
Anyways, I ended up getting away with it but at the time I thought I didn’t because the cops were pieces of shit thinking that I was faking all of it to get out of the search. They patted me down and found the pipe I used which I forgot to throw away.
So now as I’m being questioned by the cops/EMTs and on the way to the hospital, I’m freaking out and crying thinking my life is over. I thought I’d be expelled with a criminal record and all my parents hard work went to nothing.
It was single handedly the worst I have ever felt in my life. Genuine plans of suicide to spare my parents anymore shame.
I started begging to be put to sleep constantly. The nurses took pity on me and gave me “something to calm you down” which turned out to be Diazepam and holy shit did it worked.
Nearly every last thought of how unbelievably fucked I was seemed to be gone in an instant. I no longer cared about anything. A warm, blanket like feeling entered my body. With that, I was able to sleep.
Once I woke up and was discharged, I ended up finding that the cops weren’t able to find anything since the pipe wasn’t admissible and I threw out everything else during that panic ridden, blood puke filled scramble to destroy the evidence.
My question: Is Diazepam really that unbelievably euphoric or would any other benzo have done the same in such a terrible situation?