u/PicturePurple99

So I'm a switch. What that means for me is I simultaneously want to be worshipped and feared as the sadistic goddess I am...and treated like a less than human slave that needs to be beaten into submission till I'm just a set of holes to be used.

These things feel at odds with each other. Especially because I prefer both of them to be ongoing dynamics, not just individual scenes. Right now I am lucky enough to have both a dom and a sub. At the risk of sounding like my stake is too juicy, my lobster is too buttery; It's hard to juggle both of these dynamics.

I feel like I have to keep them separate. Like my dom side and my sub can't see my dynamic with my dom, without undermining my dom persona. How am I supposed to be the authority for my sub when I'm not allowed to cum or use a vibrator without permission? (Actual thing that happened)

I think the answer is something about being venerable enough to be confident in my submission. So that it's something I can be proud of, instead of ashamed. But that's tricky when the whole point is being humiliated 💀. I think the answer is also some kind of food chain dynamic. Like, yes, I am completely in charge of my sub but also I'm not at the top of the food chain.

Idk, this is a newer situation for me. Having these too sides clashing and interacting, instead of just being separate.

This is a true story that I thought you girls might find entertaining and/or interesting.

My sub is a weak little thing and I adore her. She recently decided to start working out, a little at a time. Of course I jumped at the opportunity to “help” her. So when she came over today, I asked her if she preferred to do wall sits or planking. She chose planking. Then I introduced the twist. I had prepared a script for her to read. I told her to hold the plank while reading the whole thing, out loud, carefully, and clearly. If she messed up or I couldn’t understand her, she’d be restarting; if she collapsed before finishing, there would be dire consequences.

When I test read the script (which I will add below) it took me more than a minute to read slowly out loud. I was doubtful she could pull it off, she is, after all quite frail and weak. She rushed through it. Barely making it to the end before collapsing. Only one problem, in her hurry, she skipped a couple small words, like “is”. So I gave her a short break and asked her if she thought that was adequate. She said no, smart girl. So we did it again, from the top. I watched her force her limbs to hold herself with sheer willpower. Struggling through every word between her whimpers and gasps for breath. It was delectable. Like the perfect little sub she is, she got through it, no mistakes this time. She collapsed into my arms unable to move for a bit. Then, being genuinely impressed, I lavished her with rewards and everything she always begs for. 10/10 highly recommend doing this, it was very entertaining >:3

The script: (yes, it quotes the communist manifesto)

The history of all hitherto existing society is the history of class struggles.

Freeman and slave, patrician and plebeian, lord and serf, guild-master and journeyman, in a word, oppressor and oppressed, stood in constant opposition to one another, carried on an uninterrupted, now hidden, now open fight, a fight that each time ended, either in a revolutionary re-constitution of society at large, or in the common ruin of the contending classes.

I, [subs full name], am somehow smart enough to acknowledge this truth and simultaneously dumb enough to choose contentment within the oppressed. Though not to the powers that be, such as capitalism or the bourgeois. I have no qualms fighting those, flawed and useless powers. I, however, submit to perfection. I willingly sign away my freedoms to my Goddess, [my name]. I chose slave over freeman, serf over lord. I freely and without protest choose to be the oppressed; so long as my Goddess is the oppressor.

I know this has come up before but does anyone know a term for a woman being denied like that? Any videos, search terms, or communities you can point me towards?

I've been increasingly into denial and teasing of this sort. A girl dripping and begging to get fucked but forced to watch instead. But it's a huge turn off when it's some dude- which is mostly what I find 😭

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