Is she ready for real life?
Apologies in advance for the ramble but the context is important!
My wife and I have been roleplaying and dirty talking about cuckolding for over 18 months now but have not made the step into real life yet. During that time we’ve covered so many cuckolding scenarios and there's almost never a time when we are intimate without some element of cuckolding being brought into it; and our love-making has been more frequent and so intense (other than when we've been unwell). After originally being nervous to even bring cuckolding up with my wife, she is now the one who talks about it the most and constantly teases me, not only when we are having sex, but little comments here and there as we are going about our normal day-to-day.
We have had a number of long conversations about what it would mean to make the step into reality and my wife has always felt that it was too dangerous and that it might damage our relationship, or I might change my mind... then she sometimes says things like, 'it's only a fantasy' or 'I just want you', but she has never reacted badly to it or asked me not to mention it again.
Also, there are developments that have happned more recently:
- She more frequently brings up scenarios and situations that she fantasises about. I won't detail them here as I don't want to fall foul of any posting rules, but her imagination is clearly running riot.
- She has been masturbating with her dildos on her own when I'm not there. Not very often (to my knowledge), but she didn't do this before (again, according to my knowledge and what she tells me). She loves to tell me about it and describe what she was thinking about (it's always a cuckolding scenario)
- She's been teasing me about doing it for real, she still backs out and tells me she is only teasing me, but she never used to initiate a conversation about doing it for real. She has also been asking me more questions about why I find cuckolding hot and seems to genuinely want to know the reasons, not just a 'dirty talk' situation.
So after that long context setting, my question is, for myself as much as anyone... should I try to encourage doing it for real again, even perhaps something like chatting with other guys online? I've never wanted to apply pressure so getting the balance right is the part I find hard sometimes... but I want her to know I mean it too, not just as a wild tease or roleplay.
I understand that no-one on here can answer this for me, I need to figure it out, and part of this for me is just having a place to write it down and share my internal conversation and thoughts!
Also, for the record, if my wife never wants to do this for real then she is still 'the one', my soulmate, the most amazing sexy woman and the most important person in my life!
Thanks in advance and apologies again for the ramble!
p.s. I posted a similar post recently but it got removed as I made some references that didn't realise broke the rules, I'm hoping I got it right this time!