I finally admitted to my friend that I like fat girls in my native language without trying to hide it, I'm very happy and proud of myself
To add context,I come from a conservative Arab Muslim culture that sees discussion about sexuality as a taboo I hit puberty at the age of 14 and I always liked fat girls(like really big) but I was very ashamed because people at house and school always bullies them and thought they are ugly and most importantly that obesity is unhealthy and that being attracted to it a sign of manipulation and control because a loving partner will support their lover to lose weight for their health not keeping them fat because they find it sexy,I struggled a lot with my sexuality (used to post here too about it back in the day) and vented to strangers online about it because I felt as long as obesity is unwihealthy,my desires are wrong,I couldn't even discuss it in my native language because of the shame and the conservative culture towards sex
Anyway,this day I managed to be honest with my friend(he knows I like fat ladies but I didn't say it explicitly to him in our language Arabic or said it in voice,I just said it in text messages),I literally told him that I love girls to be fat and that they are the most beautiful and my type then asked about details about weight and etc,I told I like girls who are above 90Kg(200 lbs ) to even 120-140(300lbs ) and that I like big round bodies not a muscular fat one,I was really excited to do that and he said jokingly that he will help me to find the most beautiful fat girl to date,I told him I was anxious when I told him this because this is the most honest sexual discussion I ever had
Note:sorry if this post sounds like an obsession with sex or creepy stuff, I'm really not like that and I respect women for being humans but I really had anxiety all my life because of the conservative culture, bullying and my preference
I'm proud to love the big girls with no shame no more
I love myself and my life with all its challenges
Thanks