sub drop fueled masochism
so after an intense session with my pleasure domme partner, i can sometimes drop. but usually it’s the next day. and it almost always fuels masochism/slave/free use feelings in me. like i feel like i should be used for her pleasure without getting to experience pleasure of my own, or be teased and tortured etc.
for example, today is supposed to be a rest day because we have a long weekend ahead… and ive been fantasizing all day about being made to ride my biggest dildo that stretches me out intensely while she watches me and gets off. no climax for me. just a tired mess at the end, doing her service duty.
anyone else ever feel like this?