I apparently have ED and want to book an escort.. I need advice
I’ll try to keep this as short as I can, but knowing me it’ll probably still turn into a fucking essay… Some time ago I went to an escort to lose my virginity and I couldn’t get it up… I figured it was just a mental block caused by the awkward atmosphere, so a week later I decided to give myself a second chance with another girl and… the exact same shit happened again. Luckily, the second provider was really understanding and didn’t make me feel completely humiliated over my performance issue, so huge props to her for that. If you want more context, you can read my older posts, but basically after that second visit I started thinking this might be more than just anxiety and that I could actually have a real problem… Anyway, I decided to try a different approach. For the last three weeks I haven’t jerked off once and completely quit porn to reset my sex drive as hard as possible. I also found another girl whose ad I really like and I’m planning to see her soon to try for the third time but… yeah. In the back of my mind I still keep thinking the same shit is gonna happen again. Add the stress of meeting a new person and walking into the unknown on top of that and it honestly feels like the perfect recipe for another failure… Today I started wondering if maybe the best thing would be to just assume the ED will happen again and tell the girl about it beforehand in a message, but I have no idea how to bring it up without dumping a whole truckload of bullshit on her right from the start… (I also have a moderate disability that I’d have to mention too.) How do I even approach this without sounding like a giant rant about how fucked up I am? I’m still fully capable of enjoying a session with an escort through stuff like cuddling, talking, kissing etc. and I’m not gonna turn the whole session into some huge dramatic meltdown over ED if it happens again. So I guess my question for the girls is: how problematic are clients like this really? I mean… I could just assume maybe this time things will actually be okay because I genuinely feel positive effects from those three weeks of abstinence, but… what if they’re not? I’d rather not risk it.