u/Regular-Classroom-22

Every single night I get on Lovense and let guys control me or use patterns and I've bought toys behind my bfs back. It's usually when my family has gone to bed and my bf is at work but it was a big interference with my studies in college (I'm recently graduated) and it's basically a habit at night for me to reach for my laptop and login to my cam sites and look at porn. It's kind of affected my relationship too because he can't make me squirt like the others and I find myself preferring the online stuff with vibrators. It's kind of made me more prone too drink too and that's when I start opening up to strangers about my r4pe kink

So I've always had a high sex drive and love porn. For the past 2 years I've been on and off of lovense to let guys control me via Bluetooth, and since this year it's gotten out of hand. I'm on every single night now and my bf has no idea and I keep buying toys behind his back and letting guys get me off and them get off to my nudes. It's kind of made me an alcoholic and it's messed with my life especially school and kind of my relationship but at this point I'm so deep in and dont want to stop. It's like a ritual every night once my family goes to bed that I get on Chaturbate or watch some kind of porn and have other men make me cum