Relapsed after almost two weeks of break
I broke up with my ex because she was LL4me and we had many discussions about it but things just weren’t working out.
I quickly jumped into the apps and found a fuck buddy who was very inexperienced so I had a fun time teaching her and essentially turning her into a “slut”. Things were so easy with her because it was just no strings sex. But she caught feelings so I had to end it.
I met another woman shortly after who she matched my drive and was a squirter so I had a blast, pun intended, every date night. Unfortunately, due to travel plans I didn’t feel the same spark with her long-distance. I realized I had to end it so I wasn’t leading her on for just sex.
I have been masturbating like crazy these past couple months so I decided to take a break. I tried to distract myself with activities and made it to almost 2 weeks (12 days). After breaking the seal yesterday, I’ve been masturbating all day today. It’s hard to not want this dopamine rush.
It’s hard to deal with the urges outside of a relationship but I’m starting to realize I need to deal with this in much healthier ways. I cannot keep living like a slave to my sex drive.
Anyway, just ranting to folks who can actually understand without passing any judgement. Hope you are doing well.