u/Separate_Cry5945

soo me ending up on subs of this nature has been almost a life-long, gradual process with lots of diff influences and stepping stones which ultimately just led me to realize that the very concept of degradation by men was the catalyst all along

when i was way younger, only just discovering stuff like porn and online spaces where i could freely interact with pervy guys, i’d feel ashamed, guilty and even horrified by the stuff i was engaging with and how it only seemed to get more extreme and specific. however no matter how bad i felt about myself, i was never able to stop myself from “relapsing” for too long, and soon enough i just ended up coming to terms with this particular kink of mine. coming to terms in a sense that i stopped feeling bad abt engaging/indulging in it as i have just accepted that’s simply the way things are and im not able to just will it into changing. the thing is, despite just sorta finding peace with the fact that this is the way i get off/content i rub to, in my usual everyday life the way i conduct myself, my actual beliefs and thoughts would p much be a total contradiction of the stuff i gooned to and to be completely honest, so far it hasnt impacted my irl conduct in any significant way. i’d say that’s simply bcs of the fact that actually acting out on the things that turn me on would have much more negative consequences on my life, other desires, goals, whatever than experiencing whatever (purely physical) pleasure and satisfaction i’d be getting in return

so i guess that’s rly the gist of my dilemma, absolutely not being willing to compromise my overall values, but also being absolutely unable to stop myself from coming back here and stuff - so for me it feels like a lose-lose situation. there’s been a few instances ofc where i’d let my guard down, act more recklessly, etc, but it’s rly difficult to bring myself to do that way more often than not.

sometimes i do wish there was an actual way that feels substancial to get me to be a degraded good little slut for real, instead of just rubbing my pussy for hours imagining men belittling, patronizing, objectifying, using and abusing me. like the same way im not able to stop rubbing to miso porn, im also not able to not carry myself like a woman with feminist ideals, so getting ferally wet when a guy is being misogynistic and degrading towards me, objectifying, groping, not asking for consent, using me as a mere pleasure tool in the worst ways is honestly starting to drive me crazy

i wish i wasnt stuck like this, thats all

for multiple reasons i always have one specific type of scenario in mind when i give into these urges and start rubbing to the thought (which i do my best to keep to a minimum…)

having a group of guy friends i hang out with as “one of the boys” pretty much, which are all aware that i am a lesbian. it would start of as a joke, a playful smack on the ass or a tit squeeze, passing it off as playing around or just for laughs. i’d laugh along as well ofc, trying not to make things awkward or to not be too sensitive or something along those lines. gradually, it would become a normal occurrence, my guy friends groping me randomly and often, after a while not even bothering to play it off as a some type of joke or anything. i would feel awkward abt making a fuss about it now, and besides we’re just buddies it’s not like that. then they’d start pushing the limits further, taking out their cocks, playfully humping me, peer pressuring me into touching them. like “i bet u wouldnt even know how to jerk it off properly”, “i wonder if it would fit between her tits”, just offhand comments like that, making bets among each other, making me comply with it gradually.

and before i know it, our “boys night” hangouts would just wordlessly turn into me being passed around and used as a cumbucket by my guy friends. they’d all have girls on the side which they actually take seriously and treat with respect of course, i’d just be kept around to be used for such purposes. it would become so normalized that they’d even stop paying attention to me really. like they’d all be playing ps5 while im on my knees bobbing my head on their cocks, we’d be out at a bar and id just be tossed from one lap to another always getting groped or dragged to the toilet to take cock, roadtrips where my head would be under the wheel most of the time, or spreading legs in the backseat.

and the worst (and secretly the best) part of it all would be the fact that i’d just be happy i can be included, even if it was only like this :)

my test results

Patient Profile: Elena, 21-year-old female.

Test Administered: Male Hatred Diagnostic Protocol (disguised GIF upvote series).

Clinical observation: Patient entered claiming feminist detachment from men. The test progressively exposed her to escalating male dominance stimuli. Elena failed spectacularly on every level.
Instead of hatred, her cunt immediately betrayed her constant leaking, uncontrollable pussy rubbing, and desperate craving for cock in every filthy form. She couldn’t stop grinding her soaked slit for male attention. Every aspect of men their power, their cum, their dominance turns her into a dripping, brainless mess. No dyke tendencies detected. This subject is wired exclusively for cock worship.

Post-test diagnosis: Elena’s feminist facade has been completely eradicated. Her mind is now flooded with throbbing dick, male scent, and the nonstop urge to spread her legs and leak like the pathetic cum-thirsty whore she truly is. She cannot resist rubbing her sloppy pussy for any man who gives her the slightest glance.

FURTHER ANALYSIS:
ELENA IS A PATHETIC, COCK-OBSESSED, LEAKING CUNT WHO FAILED THE MALE HATRED TEST AND NEVER STOOD A CHANCE.

using my one vote that could rly make a difference just so i can rub my libtard cunt to voting red is making me so wet and thoughtless i cant even imagine how good it would feel to actually make it a reality