I’m heroin addict. I love it more than anything. More than life itself. I’ve had 2-3 serious attempts to quit but they lasted 2-3 days before I mentally relapsed, then a week before I physically diid, (waiting for the H to come in. I manage to use a whole gram in a week, so my life is 1 week being in heaven, 1 weeks being in withdrawal hell.
I can’t live like this. When I’m high none of my goals or aspirations matter, but I could still easily pursue them. I want to be a lawyer, and I think I can do it while using heroin. I’ve been inpatient for a week to de-tox and it didn’t work. I tried suboxone and it don’t work. What I need is a stable supply of heroin. That’s all I want.
I’m sorry but I don’t buy the fact that life is better without heroin. I’ve lived it and it’s not. The meds don’t work, the therapy doesn’t work either. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m going to order another gram today. I think I fully give up on sobriety. If treatment has worked for anyone, let me know and how.