Hypersexuality effect on cognition
(this is kind of a long rant, I just really need it right now ++ english is not my first language sorry in advance)
I believe my hypersexuality is rooted in my childhood trauma and over the years I've learned to accept it and understand myself. As I learned how to deal with it with masturbation, I've given myself grace and made peace with the fact that I might really be more sexual than other ppl so I usually just let myself be.
I know that consuming porn to some extent really does have negative effects on our brain but I tell myself that my consumption of it is "normal" and it simply makes me feel accompanied so I let myself be with the urges. I say that I get it over with it fast when watching since I usually tend to finish along with the person in the video. I live alone too so I can do it whenever I want and I do it mostly to pass time and relieve stress.
Lately I've been more self aware of my brain fog mostly because I can see how it manifests in my academics even tho I do my best to study.
Usually, I'd think that its due to my screentime and sleeping schedule (its probably a factor) but I got curious if hypersexuality can cause it. Before coming here I've read a few articles about how HS compulsiveness induces memory and focus impairment. I've read that it has something to do with dopamine surges that can harm our brain's reward pathway.
Anyway, I'm not blaming my brain fog on HS solely. I just wanted to open a discussion regarding this because I'm trying to manage my compulsiveness more. I've just deleted my access to the site I usually watch on. I'd like to not to rely on consuming pornography when in need to pleasure myself since I believe that porn-addiction is real. I'm working on managing my screentime in general.
I hope I get better even if this isn't necessarily a sickness. I just really feel so dumb lately. Even when I put it in effort to learn, I feel like my brain can't keep up.
I don't think talking to my partner and friends about this "brain fog" will make me feel better. I don't want to sound like I'm choosing to dwell on self pity.
But I really need to put these thoughts and feelings somewhere.