Ketamine makes me cry a lot
So my first time doing K was 3 days ago, I wanted to experience this drug because I normally have mental health problems and feel very uneasy in my daily life so I thought why not try… That first day I took 30mg and only felt a buzz, nothing much.
2 days ago I took 80mg and was pretty much high. Not that much tho. After a moment I remember sitting on the floor just sobbing so much about past things that happened in my life, it’s like things burried in my being finally decided to finally come out and it overall felt extremely relieving after I was done. That night, I felt extremely contented for some reason.
I’m not sure why but up to this point, when the ketamine high wears off, I feel really peaceful. Which is quite odd to me. It’s like the after effects are 10x better than the high.
Yesterday I took 150mg in 3 times but didnt K hole. overall my body felt pretty heavy and I just sat there experiencing.I can’t experience anything during the high, but once it wears off it’s like everything just happens and a lot of areas of my life that I’ve struggles with have become so much clearer that I can now work on them outside of ketamine. I’m very grateful for that.
Overall in the last 2 days I’ve cried so much my eyes feel dehydrated, like really a lot of tears. I’m not sure why this is happening, but mostly because seeing things how they really are instead of being in a sort of a "coping state" where I just hide things from myself. It feels like it changed me and made me feel better. If any of you guys have had similar experiences with ketamine please let me know!