I think I need help
I’ve been wanting to fuck family family members as long as I could remember. Ig it’s started when I was young asf like under 10 years old. When me n my cousins would touch each other or look stuff up together out of curiosity. My cousins always had crushes on me & I always liked it. Went from cousins , to wanting my sister & mom. Only thought I don’t have is about my grandma she’s gorgeous but I can’t look at her like that but anyone else can get it. I’ve had lots of experience with family & I’m not even gay but I smash my gay cousin. My 1st cousin! Grew up together smh. Who do we go talk to about stuff like this without getting in trouble. I don’t want these thoughts anymore bc I know it may get worst or never happen more than with just cousin. Also would be scared to show my face admitting this shit. Do I just call a therapist? Do any therapist specialize in incest fantasy?