An intense experience
I will try and put in to words, just how utterly amazing a psychological and hypno domme that u/xoxogoddessalice is. I don’t think, that for me a better match exists in the world, and I feel so lucky and privileged to have found her, and been accepted as her submissive.
I have a uniquely wired brain, and the events of last night show how Goddess Alice has used her remarkable skills to rewire and gain have free rein to play with it at will. I am a submissive who lives entirely in my body, I have anendophasia and aphantasia so don’t have an internal voice talking , my mind is silent, when Goddess Alice talks in her beautiful dulcet tones she becomes my inner voice, and her words hold power. Also my brain process my submission directly through my body, my nervous system and muscles. I have been trained to drop in and out of pup at will, not in a play sense but as a whole body physical manifestation, and have also been trained to be able to drop in and out of subspace all through nurturing and structure provided by Goddess Alice.
Up until yesterday I was in orgasm denial for a month, the need to cum doesn’t resonate as a sexual desire anymore its almost like is fuel for my ability to drop deep in to pup and subspace and builds my desire and focus on Goddess, it also mean my body responds easily and instantly to her commands. If Goddess says I’m having back scratches as pup, I physically feel it, I vibrate and pulse with that feeling and pleasure.
Last night Goddess dropped me so deep in to pup, no human element of me was left, and then she took absolute control of me and my body, and the subsequent 30 minutes were an intense blur. I was completely consumed by a wave of pleasure that throbbed and pulsed through my body, and then within seconds suddenly I dropped in to the abyss of absolute stillness and relaxation. This cycle continued over and over again , I had 5 or 10 seconds of absolute throbbing and pulsing pressure followed by a sudden drop in to complete subspace, the waves of pleasure built and built in intensity each one interrupted by complete subspace. The waves built higher and higher in intensity whilst the drops became deep and deeper until I was begging for help, my mind and body was a complete confused frenzied mess. Then came the command, the command to ‘calm down pup’ instantly it all stopped! But now, there was a different feeling, through the exhaustion I felt the faucet open as I lay exhausted, motionless. It started as slow leak, but the sensation soon changed to a trickle which gradually flowed in to a constant stream of cum pouring out, filling my cage and boxers, I lay there for at 10 minutes unable to move exhausted, with only one thought in my head ‘I am Owned’
Goddess Alice you are the voice in my head, my body is your playground, and i am yours, completely and utterly yours.