u/Soft_Childhood5565

I just have to say that everyone here needs to know that you can love your friends in a very special way.

He's very far away from my country now and recently I had a fight with him and tried to remove him from my life because I misunderstood his humor with rudeness and I felt used.

Is when i learn from others that he always said good things about me and that I was always thinking how he was and if he was okey when I realized that he has a special place in my heart.

Luckily we were able to talk everything and I feel our friendship is stronger than ever.

Because of our past it was hard for us to express ourselves, I want to have him in my life for the rest of my years.

I don't want to have sex with him, I don't want to be his boyfriend, I just want to talk with him, have fun together and be there for each other, take care of him just like he takes care of me.

I hope everyone here gets to know someone like him.

Need some advices for the future

I let go my friendship of 6 years because I was nothing more than a punching bag to him, he literally slapped my head and insulted me but he was too cute for me to say something and i loved him.

Not romantically but you know, i care for him, i didn t wanted for us to stop being friends but he was literally turning me crazy.

I still have like two weeks left for me to get paid and start teraphy and i don t know how much i can take, i was adicted to this toxic person and not knowing what he is doing, what he thinks about me or if he hates me is killing me.

I know he doesn t treat me right, i know he wont date me, i know he wont fuck me (and one of his ex told me he intentionally gave him chlamydia). This whole thing give me 0 benefits to my person.

Even with all of that there is a part of me it wants him on my life. How did you forget about people who hurt you? we were so fucking toxic that i am not surprise we developed codependency.

Just asking, for me i love taller and stronger guys like me dominating me but at the same time saying that i am their bottom only.

Also them squashing me and being on top of me so i know i don t have anywhere to run.

Why is so normalized for us bottoms to get used to pain when it should not hurt at all?.

Tops need to understand that not all of us like it rough, in fact, we like it more when you show you care for our safety.

I still remember when a tourist in a city told me "just tell me if it is too much, bottom deserve respect".

Or when this really really old guy told me he wanted for me to take all the time i needed to be comfortable.

In comparasion guys my age usually don t give a shit if they hurt you, there was this one time i asked a friend how he treated his bottoms when he was having sex and he told me that when they are started whining he would say "womp womp what a loud sissy complainer you turned out to be" and just kept going. We are not friends anymore lmao

Recently i discovered that the guy i was friends with for 6 years was using me as a punching bag, emotionally, psychology and physically.

He always excused himself saying he treated all of his friends like that. Yeah probably slapping your friend in the head is something you do with everyone.

I wasn't a saint either because i had a crush on him in 2022, we stopped talking until mid 2023.

I think i unconsciously i was still infatuated with him, like despite all the bs he pulled on me I kept thinking that we would eventually fuck and he would make all of this worth it.

With how possesive and clingy he was I'm surprised he didn't, he always remember for me the fact i used to have a crush on him years ago and told me I was still obsessed with him. Luckily I'm not, someone obsessed wouldn't let anyone go.

But how can I stop thinking this? Separate posible sex (because i didn't want him to be my BF or something) in friends I find attractive? Should I have friends i don't find attractive?

Note: i just wanna clarify i didn't have those thoughts until he said he wanted to go to a xxx sauna together and that one time we made a sub guy clean his house while slapping him and humillating him. Very bdsm stuff

I'm not a creep i swear.

It can happen, i remember this one time i was getting fucked by 3 guys, the one who invited the other 2 quickly regretted his choice when he saw me giving them more attention and he just death stared them while i was getting tossed around lmao.

follow these two influencers tom powell and christian suen.

One is a tall blonde white guy and the other a slighter less tall asian guy.

The thing is i noticed the taller one is the usually the one that carries him around during pictures, there are videos where it says "lecturing my bf and he does this" And i have to found that interesting, like he establishes himself like a the dominant or strong one. While his bf is just looking cute.

Is it healthy when one guy decides to "wear the pants" On the relationship? They seem to be doing okey (on cameras at least) so i was curious if this can work

I have seen that many tops don't even consider being a bottom because of internalized homophobia.

Like when a bottom is being femenine they say some shit like "please let's not normalize gender roles" Okey what about tops that are super masculine then?

I am curious because i need to know if it is true that we ca not get along in BIG groups because of all the drama we can cause.

I was an administrator and god, you wont believe all the bs i had to deal with.

But those are memories that don t deserve to be remembered.

So i want to hear all of you guys

I'm tired of being single, as my purpose for this year besides getting into the IT industry (i kinda did already but as a freelancer), I'm going to have at least a romantic situationship with someone or a date.

Where do you guys met your partner?

I need some advice since i haven't socualize that much because i was busy with studies and work.

I (5'7 bottom) ended a toxic friendship for good (the guy 6'2 top) because it was literally making me crazy.

I always endure his toxic behaviour, manipulation, the blaming, isolation and some punches here and there, all with the hope he would change his ways.

He didn't, the last time and I'm currently in that phrase of having second thoughts on if i did the right decision.

I'm doing everything to not talk to him.

Ofc I'm better but when you have a routine with a person is hard you know?