I feel guilt for breaking three families
I am f36, me and my husband have been married for 12 years and its been a big mess. He has a large family, two brothers and a sister who is married. When i got married, i was constantly hit on by my father in law which caused a lot of rift between me and my mother in law. Sadly he passed away a few years ago.
My husband cheated on me a few years ago with a friend of mine and well that hurt. Since then, i went on a spree to never consider myself his wife and think of myself as still single until our divorce is finalised. We were going through some troubles financially so we decided to wait for divorce till things were better.
During those days, we had moved back to my husbands hometown, he had a remote job, this is during the covid era. All his brothers lived nearby. I was on good terms with their wives just not on good terms with my mother in law, she always hated me for some reason.
After a few get togethers, i noticed how both of my husbands brothers would gawk at my chest any chance they got, they would hold eye contact across the room for longer than required and would offer me drinks and to smoke up and also would place their hands right on top of my bum. It was awkward at first but i cant deny, they were both much more handsome than my husband. My husband was the shortest of them and had less facial hair than them, i never thought about it until these things started happening.
We planned a beach trip over the weekend and i purposely decided to take some risk and show off. I am not bragging but i do mantain myself decently well. I can rock a bikini better than any of their wives. So i decided to wear one thats really revealing but covered it with shorts and a cute top.
Without even being in a bikini, both brothers kept staring at me and trying to start conversations. When i took my top off, not just them but even their wives were gawking me like anything, i felt secretly good about it but didnt show much care and went ahead and took my shorts off and went in to the ocean.
After a few hours of resting and eating, we went to do water sports where one of my husbands brother sat right behind me on a jet ski and i dont know how to put it, his hands were all over my torso, and i am so ashamed to say this, it felt good. His hands were massive, i felt like a kitten and it just felt nice and i couldnt stop giggling.
Late night when we reached home, we decided to stay over at my husbands brothers place. Everyone was too tired, i went to the kitchen to grab some glasses and water for my husband and myself and his brother was also there on his phone. He told me how today was fun and how im so in shape etc. he then asked me to rate his body and idk why i just endlessly complimented how huge his hands are. I shouldnt have. He took that as an opening and flirted heavily with me and i couldnt stop giggling mutedly cause i didnt want to wake anyone else up. He asked me if im sleepy and i said no, we planned to say good night to our partners and go for a walk after without telling anyone and i shamelessly agreed. I went back, and saw my husband was already asleep and left the water there and came back and he was right by the door.
We went on the walk and we kept flirting and giggling until we reached a secluded area in the nearby park and he asked me if i wanted a smoke, so we shared a smoke and then he asked me if i have ever passed the smoke into each other ever with my husband and i acted dumb and told him i dont even know what he means by it and he asked me if he can demonstrate it live and i let him and thats it, he took a puff and came for my mouth and i opened it like i was just waiting for it.
We made out, his hands wandered all over my torso again, he then turned me around and took my top off, we made out like that, i pressed myself into him and he groaned. We then decided it was too risky and walked back to his place and went to his garage. Thats where we got into his car and i gave him head. And we made out even more.
That was a one time thing or i thought, a few days ago he called me ask if im free for a trip and if i can lie to get out of town. So i thought about it, made up a reason and asked my husband if i can go see my college best friend who is visiting so and so place for a day and he argued but agreed eventually, not that i would have cared much.
So i went a bit away in uber and then switched cars and got into my husbands brothers car and we went to an airbnb which was an hour or so away.
And when i reached there, there were two cars already present there and i recognised one of them, it was the other brother of my husband and i went numb thinking how wrong this all is.
Me and my husbands brother who i hooked up with a few days ago consoled me and told me how it wont be a big deal and we are all a "family" and it wont come out. I got some courage thinking this is my revenge on my husband and went ahead with it. But the other car was of my husbands sisters husband. OMFG, i love that woman and her husband is here like wtf. So i stood there all awkward and they came and gave me hugs and they were all so horny it was right on their stupid faces.
We ordered food, made small talk, flirted, showed each other our old college pics and eventually we were sat on a sofa, extremely close to each other.
Thats when it started, a hand on my thigh, another moving my hair on the other side to kiss my neck, hands moving higher to reach my clit and the main guy who orchestrated it all standing infront of me, taking his pants off.
I blew all of them on my knees, they couldnt get enough of my boobs, they kept squeezing, sucking and slapping them constantly, at one point i had 6 fingers inside me, two from each of them. I must have cum twice before actual sex began.
What was the most cruel was that they kept humiliating my husband as they mounted me. And all i did was pulled them closer. They were all in their 40s with the eldest being 50. They would cum on me mostly but the orchestrator wanted more and came inside me and i foolishly let him. I had hickeys all over my torso and my boobs. My bum was red and my legs felt so sore. We laid in the bed for an hour, all naked just talking, gasping and touching each other, before they wanted another round of it.
We moved to the washroom and took a shower together. I was on my knees and the water kept running down their bodies to my face and all i did was poke my tongue out and they placed their dicks on my face together and kept slapping it. I felt so dirty yet rewarded.
Eventually we all dressed up, got drunk and danced and laughed and again made out and got frisky. Both of my husbands brother were too drunk to even speak, and fell asleep on the sofa's itself. But my sister in law's husband was fully awake and kept his eyes on me. We went for a walk and when we came back, they were still sleeping. We headed to the room alone and closed the door behind us. He told me how he has masterbated multiple times thinking of me and i kept mhmm'ing to whatever he said.
We ended up sharing the bed, making out, giving each other head and having sex that lasted so long, that i wanted to just sleep right on top of him, i didnt even bother cleaning myself before falling asleep on right next to him.
This is where the problem began. One of the brothers in the morning took a pic of me and my SIL' husband in the bed naked and sent it to some of their friends. We didnt know any of it. But then by the time we reach home, it had somehow reached one of their sons. And he eventually told about it to his mom and thats how it spread. Since then, massive verbal spats and well i also almost got slapped and just yeah i am banned from any of their gatherings and there might be another divorce in the family.
I feel guilty but also relieved that im not longer the only one hurt in my dynamic with my husband, im not expanding on my arguments with the family or my husband since im assuming you guys wouldnt be interested in it, so yeah this was it...