u/StageProfessional860

I can't believe I am writing this but I am chickening out. It took 3 years to tell my girlfriend (now my wife) my fantasy, 1 year of her warming up to it, 2 years of roleplaying and now we are finally exploring a third. I didn't talk to anybody yet but she gave me the green light to choose a third to introduce to our bed for an experimental threesome (we discussed to do oral only for a first encounter but its a barrier that can come off if we all feel comfortable) and I cant just bring myself to do that. She said I have the green light to choose whoever I see fit. But I cant bring myself to make a choice. Every time I see a picture of a third and his cock, I imagine his hands on my wife, his cock in her mouth. My petite innocent wife with a body count of 2 (she slept only with a high school sweetheart prior to me) will try another cock in front of me.

Now, the fantasy very much turns me on, It was my fantasy from even before meeting her, to share my partner with another man. But now that its becoming real, I feel like I am chickening out. Any advice for me?

So, me and my wife are slowly getting experience, we have so far done a handful of threesomes, after a lot of tries we found some older gentleman I regularly share her with (once a couple of weeks as minimum).

At what point were you like, fuck it, we are adding more men? I am honestly considering a MFMM, a mini-gangbang if you will.

We have been chasing this for a couple years now. After a lot of back and forth, chickening out a few times and chatting with single men, we pulled the trigger. We planned it would be a blowjob only threesome, so to test the waters. We have both been vanilla all our life, few long term partners, this was a huge step. We expected an overwhelming experience. An ecstatic hedonistic event, which would as minimum redefine our relationship but it was absolutely the opposite. I expected to see her with another penis and think "wow" or get jealous, but...

She was taking us both in her mouth taking turns and it was, well, a bit underwhelming. She was struggling to alternate and for me it was, well, quite boring at times, for her also. After 15 minutes of alternating she told me to have sex with her while she would keep taking him in her mouth. Then I asked her if she would like to try his, and so we switched. It was not planned, but we figured there was no going back.
It was, well, nice, but at the same time impractical, because as she was taking him she was struggling to suck me, we tried different positions, It was a bit uncomfortable for both so at some point I let them have at it and I sat back to watch them go at it. We didn't have condoms, so he went bareback, I thought I wouldnt know how to handle seeing his raw penis in her but it was more a "well, nice view, alright" for her it was (her words) "nice sex but why would I be having sex with him when I can be having sex with you?".

The fantasy was to have a threesome and her to be overwhelmed with two penis at once, not really to have her have sex and me to watch. It turns out its highly impractical (and she doesnt do anal so no DP) and messy, certainly not what we were hoping to get out of it.

I feel a bit disappointed with myself, because I have been craving it for so long and now thats past me I am like "huh? alright".

My wife doesn't really see the point of her having sex with another man. Will we have more experiences? I dont know, at the moment, I don't think so

Anybody had such an experience or did we do something wrong?