u/SuchSheepherder2056

I keep jerking off to being a feedee and inflate my belly to imitate weightgain since it turns me on. Personally I’m not a feedee or a feeder I just like watching people gain weight but I still wanna experience it in a way that doesn’t result in me actually getting fat.belly inflating is a 50/50 sometimes I regret it and sometimes I enjoy it but I wanna start stuffing and gain weight so this is confusing me as fuck. What can I do?

The thought of getting forcibly feminized and fattened up to look like a curvy woman turns me on but makes me so dysphoric and part of why I’m delaying my shot or procrastinating is because I’m too tired of having to hide taking my shot in this transphobic household and discarding medical waste without anyone noticing is a hassle which makes me wanna carry on with delaying the shot bc it turns me on but at the same time i genuinely won’t handle getting feminized especially permanently and I don’t want to have a cycle again