u/Sweet_Prize_4331

hnnnggh woke up this morning humping my mattress. kept going like a needy little slut until i almost exploded in my pants. reached the edge from just a few simple thrustz 😫 im actually sho weakk these dayz😫

after just 5 days of denial ive accepted my place as a filthy whore for porn. i havent showered all week. 🤢🤢 i reek but instead of doing anything about it i spend all day sending out slutty messages and making my goon partz feel goodd AND DATS SHO EASY NOWWW!!!

everything is a trigger. 😵‍💫non nudes, censors, armpits, tight clothes, dirty panties, sweaty disguting NEETs, certain emojis, and e ven cocks ( but im totally straight just too gooned outtt to think ab that rn ) earlier today i nodiced i had porn saved on my desktop and even the tiny little pic was enough to get me throbbing and pumpingnhh nd thrusttinggh

💕💕FUCK I LUV PUMPINGn💕💕

Pump PUMP PUMP until i leak leak leak precummies and go alllllll dumb.... allz my IQ lost to pornz nd i feel sho proud! 😵‍💫 I luve being a mindless gooner who getz all dumb and disgusting and slutty for otherz. i dont evenn feel human. i mindlessly hump like an animal and i ssit in filth like an animall nd im happy wit dat as long as i have my bright yummy pornies to goon to!!!! 💛🩷💛

everytime puppy tries to lay down she cantt stawp herself from making humpies. all she wantz to do is smash her puppy parts against anything that makes them feel good. pillows... mattresses.... they all fweel sho gud 😫😫😫

so ofc puppy laid around all day drinking lots of liquids and watching cringe pornz but that only made her feel more needyyy.

thats when puppy did something kinda gross... puppy got under the hot covers and got all sweaty and musky and started huffing like a dogg. idk why butt puppy has become soooo obsessed wit scentplayy. she spends hours fantasizing about sticking her nose in sweaty butts, stinky armpits and used panties. puppy even has some dirty underwear lying around but was too tired to go and fetch themm~ still the thought of huffing her stinky stained undies never left her mind like a llittle dirtyy perv 🤢

🫣 ffuck this is all so embarrassing to admitt🫣

so um i like dont usually post on here (>!bc im a femboy and i dont want to invade!<) but i think i melted into puppy mode and feel so fucking needy for attentionnnnn. 🥺

puppy was home sick today. tiredd, coughing and sweatyy. puppy took it easy but everytime puppy tried to lay down and get some rest she couldnt stawp herself from making humpies. it didnt matter how tired or sick puppy felt all she wanted to do was smash her puppy parts against anything that would make them feel good. pillows... mattresses.... they all felt so gud 😫😫😫 so ofc puppy laid around all day drinking lots of liquids and watching pornz but that only made her feel more needyyy.

thats when puppy did something kinda gross (CW: scentplay, musk and dirty underwear ahead) >!puppy got under the hot covers and got all sweaty and musky and started huffing like a dogg. idk why butt puppy has become soooo obsessed wit scentplayy again. she spends hours fantasizing about sticking her nose in sweaty butts, stinky armpits and used panties EVEN when shes sickk. puppy even has some dirty underwear lying around but was too tired to go and fetch themm~ still the thought of huffing her stinky stained undies never left her mind like a llittle perv 🫣 ffuck this is all so embarrassing to admitt🫣!<

idek why im saying any of this aside from the fact ive edged all day and feel super needy. anywayz thanks for reading puppy's ramblings... might try to lay down again but i already know its going to end in endlesss humpies

yesterdayy i made a post about how scared i am that porn has broken me~ welllllllllll today the weather fucked all of my planz so i decided to give in to porn💕

and it feelz sho much better than resistingggggg!!!! in a bed covered in stains and my own dirty underwear, i stayed under the covers and huffed my own stinkk all day. and it was awfulll 🤢 but i couldnt stop huffing bc porn told me to 😫

i caught up on all my fav subs... then i opened moar tabs and filled my empty head wit moar porns. i caught myself watching the most embarrassing videos over and overr again. Censored teases, women pissing themselves, women drooling on their nice shiny porn pits, feminizing gifs and even a few videos of women doing nothing but bending over and farting into the camera...

and im such a pornbrained beta i couldnt look awayyyy 🫣 These videos were on loop until i got loopyyy 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 letting pwetty porn mold me into the perfect ass worshipper. the thought of being some pretty girls stink huffing slutt only made my pleasure surge. being broken by porn is right for me. i need to huff sweaty stinky porn mommies and waste an afternoon drooling for pretty pixelz 🤤

the only thing i didnt do was cum... which might be why im back tonight desperate for more

my bio used to say "pornbrained beta" and the more time thats passed the more worried ive become that this description has become true. i can hardly go 48 hours without at least glancing at porn and the second i do im locked in for hours but its not my overreliance on porn that has me worried its my masturbation habits that worry me. its just theyve become so pathetic...

I used to watch JOIs, and use my memory. Now i jerk off to whatever goonslop my algorithm feeds me and its always something completely humiliating. Stuff like censored "beta safe" porn or something cringe and nasty or some bright and colorful caption encouraging me to sink and get worse. And it all turns me on! Despite my resistance I always obey porn and now my mind is filled up with all these weird fetishes and triggers. I mean a hairy armpit is enough to make me cum and I've embraced fetishes that used to be a limit!

but its not just the porn. I'm pathetic too. earlier this afternoon i was rubbing my cock over my sweaty boxers and I saw a drawing of an ass in leggings. This was enough for me to hit the edge. I was scared I was going to blow my load from some light touching and some non nude drawings. when im not fearing becoming a prejac i worry about PIED. I can stroke for countless hours but i barely think about cumming. i pump until i go limp and then i roll over... quickly i get bored and take another peak at porn. i stay limp but i keep watching because the nasty graphic images are all i crave. i want to go dumb for porn and then stay dumb for porn whether im hard, limp, or close to cumming in two strokes.

im completely broken by porn. i obsess over it. i lose sleep over it. ive become a slut for goonslop, getting worse and my own humiliation. despite my love of porn not interfering with my immediate daily life i cant shake this feeling there is more out there. that i would be better without it. so i try to quit over and over. i delete my posts and comments and my many saved pictures. I do it over and over again but i keep crawling back. its tragic, and erotic all at once and I'm just wondering if anyone else feels the same?

How do others feel about being broken by porn and how do you live with the compulsion to get better and worse at the same time?

a few days ago i deleted (nearly) every cringey and pervy post of mine. i put my filthy laptop away and began working on myself. hanging with my friends, cleaning, adulting, etc. it went great! my self esteem went up and i genuinely was enjoying life as a capable alpha adult

...today i logged in thinking i could be a good boy and delete my many many manyyy embarassing comments but... um... nope! 💕 my feed is too perfect. 💕 the first post i saw was a "beta test" featuring some censored porn and it put me right back into my pathetic place. i kept scrolling... filling my silly little head with bright hentai captions, hairy women, lotz of filthy cringe, and short videos that were just begging to be watched over and over again on loop 🔁😵‍💫🔁 i got pulled in and couldnt leave the endless colorful porn slopp 😵‍💫🩷😵‍💫

i obvs start pump pump pumping and before i knew it a MILLION tabs were open and an hour had gone bye bye. Even worse ive lost my stamina. a few fast pumps on my pp and i hit the edge 😫 im so ashamed to relapse liek dis. im ashamed im close to becoming a prejac. im ashamed for still acting like a beta despite knowing i can get better. guess i can always try again tomorrow?

luckily i gtg rn but hopefully i'll never log in again. we all know thats whats best for us...

a few days ago i deleted (nearly) every cringey and pervy post of mine. i put my filthy laptop away and began working on myself. hanging with my friends, cleaning, adulting, etc. it went great! my self esteem went up and i genuinely was enjoying life as a capable alpha adult

...today i logged in thinking i could be a good boy and delete my many many manyyy embarassing comments but... um... nope! 💕 my feed is too perfect. 💕 the first post i saw was a "beta test" featuring some censored porn and it put me right back into my pathetic place. i kept scrolling... filling my silly little head with bright hentai captions, hairy women, filthy cringe, and short videos that were just begging to be watched over and over again on loop 🔁😵‍💫🔁 i got pulled in and couldnt leave the endless colorful porn slopp 😵‍💫🩷😵‍💫

i obviouslyy start pump pump pumping and before i knew it a MILLION tabs were open and an hour had gone bye bye. Even worse ive lost my stamina. a few fast pumps is all it took for me to hit the edge 😫 im so ashamed to relapse liek dis. im ashamed im close to becoming a prejac. im ashamed for still acting like a beta despite knowing i can get better. guess i can always try again tomorrow?

luckily i gtg rn but hopefully lucky i'll never log in again. we all know thats whats best for us