Just need someone to tell me I am doing s good job.
Tell me I'm good for going to work, for making myself breakfast and taking my meds.
Gently push me to do my laundry and rub my stomach to ease the menstrual cramps I am feeling.
Tell me i did good by visiting family instead of isolating yesterday.
I am trying. I am trying so hard. Just give me credit for not allowing myself to spiral.
Discovered i have a mommy kink a couple years ago after aggressively denying it for years. I have major childhood trauma but worked really hard to not let it define me.
I am a butch domme who gets off on the other's pleasure. In the bedroom I usually am the one to preform oral and finger while getting off to it on my own.
I work hard, dress in black clothes and am independent in a way where I take pride in.
However i do have softer spots. I collect plushies. I watch Disney movies occasional to soften life's blows.
I am an adult lesbian who craves a mother's affection. I want a woman to play a mother role so bad sometimes i curl up and fight back the tears.
I want them to proud of the small things. Such as brushing my teeth, doing laundry, keeping the house running, making them feel good, ect.
Its a strange place to be in. I dont wanna be in diapers or suck pacifiers. I just want a mommy who sees their partner as a hard worker who need a soft place to fall. Affection, affirmation and assurance.
This...was really hard to admit to myself. When stress flares all I want is to be held.