Follow Your Desires
*I wrote this story a year and a half ago.... and I wanted to share it once more. I hope you all enjoy. I also made a 2nd part, but I cant find it. Ill have to look for it. In the meantime, however, I hope that you enjoy. ☺️*
The sound of cars rushing behind me filled my ears. It was a busy restaurant afterall, and many people wanted a spot at this place. But I had a spot, and that spot was a date with a colleague of mine.
We had passed each other in the hallway of the lab we worked in several times I had always given her this look of wonder. Sadly I had only ever caught looks at her in the hall before, as I worked IT for the lab and never got to go into the special projects area where she worked. Honestly, I wondered why they even have an IT department of our size, as they never let us work in the labs. I sighed this morning as she passed by.
"Such a gorgeous woman and you're still too cowardly to say anything." I thought to myself. I was right anxiety held me back from just doing what I wanted to do.
I slumped down onto the hallway floor. The scientists had presumably gone to work in their labs, so the area was silent. I sit there, head hung low, wondering if I'll ever have the energy to chase her. All I ever do is let the opportunity pass by. Walking away in the sleak pair of heels she always wears, ahh such a majestic click click click
"Are you okay?" The voice shocked me and pulled me out of my trance. I looked up and there she was, the scientist of my dreams standing there before me. I quickly tried to stand but she motioned for me to keep seated, yet she stayed standing before me.
"I saw you across the hall, you're that boy who's always looking at me in the mornings right?" I blushed at this. "Damn, she knew this who time," I thought to myself.
"Well I'm so sorry it's that you're so beautiful and I couldn't control myself, aghh I'm so sor..." she placed a finger on my lips and knelt down to eye level with me. "I didn't ask you all of that, yes or no is all I want, boy." Her words were deliberate and slow... all I could do is reply as she commanded
"Yes" I said meekly. "Good, don't be ashamed of your impulses either. I saw you looking, and I know you liked what you saw... so embrace your impulses." Her words were almost hypnotic.
At that point she gave me her card and then told me to meet here at the restaurant right outside the lab. It was such a classy place where the executives and scientists would go to eat, way out of my league. I stepped inside the place and the waiter saw me. He immediately directed me to a table in the back corner, somewhat isolated where she was sitting. She wore the most incredible black dress I could ever imagine. It perfectly accentuated every aspect of her. I couldn't believe that I managed to land a date with her.
I sat down at the table, and she greeted me with a warm smile. "You're here, good. See, you did good following your desire." She said this warmly, her words inviting themselves into my mind. We chatted up and down about the goings on in the world, well she talked and I listened mostly. One thing that struck me as odd was this pen she had in her hair. It seemed out of place for such a formal place. And strangly enough it kept reflecting light into my eyes, even when I didn't move at all. It was strange but I was too captivated by the woman to say anything.
The bill came and the waiter placed it next to me. It was ludicrously expensive. Over $300 just between the two of us. I looked up at her, and she looked me in the eyes. "What are you afraid of?" she asked me slowly and empathetically. "The bill it's too much for me to handle, maybe I'm not..." she cut me off, "You're not the man for me? No.. I won't listen to that" She said before getting up from her seat and coming over to my side of the table.
"You're so afraid of not being enough for me, but you have nothing to be afraid of." You need to let go and follow your desires. This is your path, now follow it for me." Her gaze was fixed with mine at this point. I was fully in her control. Her words bounced around in the back of my mind repeating themselves. "Follow your desire, don't be afraid."
I placed my hand into my pocket and pulled out my wallet. I opened it, her eyes guiding me to the card. I placed it on the table... and gave into my desire to be enough for her. -$300 was added to my ledger along with a -$60 for the staff. I had done it. I let go of fear and self doubt, and I just let myself be enough. She smiled, realizing that I had finally done so, and with that she told me to meet her in an designer shoe store tomorrow. To which I agreed without question.
As I walked back out into the parking lot I began to ponder. "This is insane. I just spent so much on dinner and now to buy her designer shoes tomorrow." And yet when I thought this, I didn't feel bad at all. the thoughts in the back of my mind lingered, and I let those anxieties wash away. I had done something and let go of fear. I was finally hers.
I caught a glimpse of her through the outside window. She was smiling and I couldn't quite see her too well, but I thought I caught a glimpse of something. I could swear... that she was taking notes.