[Long Post] How I lost my virginity in a gay crusing bar
TL,DR: 28 years male virgin went on a whim to a gay cruising bar, where I got my first blowjob and kiss. After a check-up and better planning, I returned some weeks later, to a fun night where I sucked a lot of dicks, fucked a couple guys in a bit awkward way, and got mandhandled twice.
**CONTEXT**
I am a 28 years old who, apart from being quite socially inept, didn't actually feel any need to have sex, neither had sexual or romantic attraction to anybody. I did feel horny in a regular basis, but masturbation used to be enough to satiate it. For this, I thought that I would live and die as a happy virgin.
However, I do not know what changed in the last 3 years or so, that a curiosity of sorts arised - I was more and more keen to the idea of trying to have sex. This curiosity was pansexual by nature, not restricted to any gender or role. But I used to think that would stay just a fantasy, something that would only come to fruit in my mind while I jacked off.
One day though, casually scrolling through smut confessions, I read an account of a gay man that described his experience in a gay cruising bar. In his words, he said how easy was to actually get sex once you entered the place; that a simple stare exchange could quickly lead to blowjob; that the costumers were men of all ages and body shapes, who had a variety of preferences and were respectful to each other. Reading that, I started to fantasize how nice might be if I went to place like this, where minimal social interaction may lead to a nice fuck. Then, to my surprise, the OP actually provided the name of the club and the city where it is located, which surprisingly turned out to be the same city where I live! I immediately searched out the place, and discovered both the functioning hours and the price were pretty much inside my reach too! Not going to lie, that realization, lightened up something inside me. However, for a while I was still too anxious to actually go.
**THE FIRST DAY**
Things changed when in a Saturday, driven in a response to a depressive episode, I decided I had to do something to spend the night. In the way to somewhere, the idea to visit the cruising bar popped up in my mind, mostly just to have a look out of it instead of doing anythinh. Telling to myself that I could always just go back at any moment, I changed my course to the bar.
Upon arrival, I was a little nervous, walking down and up the street (which thankfully was too crowded to anyone notice my strange behaviour lol) before I took the courage to go in. The first floor was like an usual bar, with good light and vibes being more about dancing, chatting and having a drink. The distinction was that most costumers were topless or in their underwear, which showed I was indeed in the right place. I went to the changing room, where there a couple of guys already making out. I did not have the guts to roam around in briefs, so I just took my shirt off, put my things in the locket, then went up to the second floor, where the dark room - the place with the "action" - was.
The dark room was maze-like, but had enough light to roam around and see the men body shapes and some of their faces. There was not a lot of people at first, but I could see and hear some things that started to turn me on a bit: guys standing around, some naked, looking at each other bodies; more than a pair of shoes behind closed doors of imdividual cabins; soft moans, kisses, the plapping, and choking sounds from behind those closed doors too.
But what really made me stop for a second was when I turned around a corner, into a corridor that was even darker than the rest - which I will call "the darker hallway" - and saw two really hot guys fucking in the middle of it, the bottom wiggling his ass while the top grabbed him by the hips. And I was not the one who stopped to look - at least three other guys were standing at the corridor, all of them jerking off. Then, suddenly, one of them grabbed my dick.
Now, ngl, I actually got scared by it. Perhaps I should not be as surprised given the context, but I did not imagine people would be so... direct in their intentions lol. So I just stared at him with wide eyes at him, then backed off away from the corridor. If my mood were different, I probably would just go away, but I think I was so numb due my depressive episode that curiosity won over anxiety. So I observed a little more, and realized it was indeed normal to touch to show interest, but so was walking away if the other didn't want to reciprocate. No one would insist after a rejection.
After understanding those "unwritten rules", I decided then to see how far I could go. After a while, a really hot white guy, with perfect abs, showed interest on me. We explored each other bodies a while, his hands slowly reaching my dick to a handjob while I did the same to him. Then he asked what I liked, I was still not that confident, so I said for me we could stay like that for a while. But that was not what he was looking for lol, so he just left.
The next guy that came to me was very tall, and the foreplay went the same as the last time. But while I was hugging him, he started to push me into one of the cabins. I said to him I wouldn't do any penetration, to which he responded it was fine, he just wanted to do a blowjob, in a way that I could not say no. So, as soon as we closed the cabin door, he went to his knees, pulled my shorts off, and started to blow me. The feeling of someone else spit wetting my dick was totally unexpected, as well as the softness of his mouth. But remember when I said I was too numb that night? Well, I guess that counted in a bad way this time lol. Like, the guy knew what he was doing, playing with my nipple and balls, while using his tongue to circle my forehead. But, despite staying hard all the way, I couldn't feel anything. So, trying to change that, as I really liked his eagerness, I asked for a kiss, something he promptly agreed - in a second, his mouth was passionately devoring me, his tongue founding a way into mine. I didn't know how to react for a while, and I guess it was but awkward for him to kiss so intensely a mouth that stayed immobile for a few seconds lol, but eventually I just copied what he was doing and things flowed better. Still, I could not get rid of my numbness, so I pulled him away and said I was not in the right mood that day. Thus, after he went way, I went downstairs, got dressed and left the club. It was not only after I've reached home that it sank in: that night, I had my first kiss AND blowjob. And I thought "I liked it".
**THE SECOND DAY**
The next day I was divided. One part of me (rightly so) believed what I did was reckless, both in an emotinal way, but also regarding physical health, as I didn't make any prevention against STIs. Another part though was impressed on how far I got, and asked to myself "why not just go all the way in?". To reconciliate both, during the next weeks I researched a looooot about STIs prevention, made all exams I could, took all vaccines available to me, and got my hands on some prep pills, condoms and lube. Then, in a weekend I felt confident enough, I returned to the club.
The ground floor was the same as the last time, people chilling with their shirts off and some hook ups on the changing room. I didn't stay there too long, I quickly changed into the micro shorts I had brought and went to the second floor.
That day, the house was significantly more crowded, which perhaps explained why people seemed more demanding - I had to walk around for a longer time till I could find someone who showed interest. He was a short and fit black man, we rubbed ourselves into each other for a bit, till he whispered, with a very soft voice, that he was a bottom. I pushed him into one of the cabins, and was ready to pull a condom up, but in what seemed a blink of an eye, he unpacked one of his own condoms, put it on me, then lubed my dick. He turned around, trying to my direct my hard cock into his hole. But things... didn't went right lol. Something I discovered trying to find the righy condom size, is that despite having a normal length, my dick is thicker than the average. So, he had problems trying to make it fit, and after a minute he just gave up. That was a bummer, but I knew the night was just beggining.
The next man that approached me was bald white guy, though I couldn't really tell his age (other than he was obviously and adult). He pushed me into a cabin, this one didn't have a door this time, though it didn't stop him to blow me off. He was gentle, and since I was in a better mental state, I was able to appreciate the ups and downs of his mouth playing with my dick.
But, I was impatient to give some head too, so I got him up, then went down to my knees and started to suck his dick. I don't know if it was the spongoeus texture, or how I could feel the muscles relaxing, but the felling of swallowing cock is so exciting! It was also such a bliss that my first blowjob was out on the open like that, so that anyone who passed through that hallway could see!
And in fact that actually paid off - after a while I could sense someone teasing my hole; first passing his fingers through it, then giving some gentle pats, till started to finger me vigourously. Without taking my mouth out of the cock, I turned my hand to grab the other, from a man visibly on his 50s. I then took turns sucking both, while the men alternated between kissing and groaning.
The first man then said he would let me and the older man to have some fun by ourselves, and left. Immeditially, the older man asked to fuck my ass, which I promptly agreed since I was anxious to finally lose my anal virginity! So I gave him a condom, lubed my hole, then turned around. However, it was my ass turn to not fit lol. I could feel his tip pressing my hole, but everytime would just slip. I didn't know what to do, as I was as relaxed as physically possible, so to not lose the momentum like last time, I went to suck his cock again. I was disposed to keep going till he cums, but, to my disappointment, he started to really push my limits, demanding me to hold a deep throat even though I said I had to take a time to get to that level. So it reached a moment that I just got tired, said I couldn't go on like that and needed some air. Fortunately, he seemed to understand.
So after that, I went to the "darker hallway", thinking it should be easier to find someone compatible there. Indeed, I quickly found another cock to suck, a white man from around my age. He wanted to fuck me too, but he said he wanted to do it bare, which was off my limits. Then, as soon as he left, another guy asked for a kiss, then turned his back to me and started to press his ass against my dick! I almost hadn't time to put a condom, before he led my cock straight into his asshole. There was a little bit of struggle again, but he seemed to be a quite experienced bottom, who knew how to deal with a thicker dick, and in a few seconds it went all in! And it was so good, to feel the vaccum of his hole pulling me deeper into him, while his cheeks pressed my shaft! Even though my thrusts were kind awkward, he compensated it by twerking his ass like a pro. We stayed like that till I cummed, then a gave him a last one last caress, and went to recover my energies, happy that I had finally tasted what a man ass really feels like!
After half a hour just vibing in the ground floor, I felt I was ready for another round. I found that the "darker hallway" was indeed the best place to get some action, so I went back there. And sure enough, quickly I found someone grabbing my ass - a somewhat overwheight white guy with a very strong grip on his hands. I turned, and after some kisses and dirty talk, I went to give him head. I started it slow, but something in his body language incentivated me to be more and more intense. Eventually, my mouth was going up and down his erection in a way that I actually didn't know I was capable of. I shocked on his hard dick, while letting my spit flow to my his legs and playing with his balls and nipples, till he couldn't resist to left some moans (if only that older guy from before waited a little instead of being forceful lol...). From a glance, I could see we were actually putting up a show, since at least 2 guys were jerking off while watching my blowjob with interest.
After I was finally out of breath, the guy grabbed my arms and turned me around, ready to fuck my hole. Again, it was hard to make his dick go in, but he didn't give up - he put a hand in my back and pressed it to make my ass up go progressiviely up. Till, finally, I could fill his lenght sliding into my insides. It was so good to feel my insides filled like that! But I didn't have time to process it, though, as he made me to lie down face down in one of the mattresses that were placed across the wall on the other side of the hallway. He proceeded to fuck me like I was his bitch, which I was tbf, since my the only reaction I could do was to moan, while feeling him filling me up and his plapping my butt cheeks. After he was finished with me, he slapped my ass, and pushed me into him to a very passionate kiss. And with this absolute wild sex, I had finally lost all my virginities.
I felt unstoppable after that! I sucked so many cocks that I lost the count, while having my own sucked a few times too. I then found that a group of running a train on a hot brown bottom with a perfect bubble butt, so I joined them - though I was clearly the least experienced out of them and got ashamed because of my thrusts, the bottom was very sympathetic and kissed me after I had finished (though I had hold my cum this time).
Finally, after a few more cocks sucked, I went back to the "darker hallway", and as soon as I found a top who accepeted to fuck me, I turned around and spread my ass as wide as possible, so he could penetrate me with all the strenght he got. Still, the chemistry as not as good as with the first, though he manhandled me just the same, pressing my head in ground direction and forcing me to see my own dick wiggling around with each thrust. Just like before, there were a couple people watching us. I tried to invite one of them to end my run with a spitroast, but they would rather only to jack off. But I didn't care that much, since a little later I cummed the second time that night, while bottoming.
After that, I was pretty tired, and overstimulated with all the new sensations I had. So I changed my clothes and went back home, thinking about all the doors that had opened in my mind.