I can only get off to Rape threats…
Ive always had a bit of a rape fetish, but didn’t really mind it much. Last week I tried exploring it and posted myself masturbating online, baiting people —getting people to threaten or demean me. I wanted to try it just once, but reading how people wanted to rape made cum so good i had to do it again… I ended up posting myself 4 times this week and masturbating from late at night to around 4am. Some people I know use reddit and my face is just out there. For all I know my closest friends and family could have seen me desperately fucking myself with a dildo.
The thing is I can’t stop. I just keep rereading the comments and dms telling me how they wanna rape me so I don’t end up posting again. I know I can’t fully stop though… it’s only a matter of time before I do something even more extreme. Maybe ill intentionally pass out at a club, or maybe i’ll walk around my sketchy neighborhood in the middle of the night wearing just s tank top and shorts… Maybe ill even leave my address in my next post.
Should I stop myself, or is this who I am now?