Need honest opinions from SWs — am I overthinking this?
Hi SWs of Reddit, I’d like some honest opinions on a situation.
So basically, I came across an ad from a girl offering erotic massage services. I really liked the pictures. I couldn’t fully see her face (maybe like 1/3 of it), but anyone with eyes could easily tell she’s going to be ridiculously pretty.
I messaged her to ask if I could book her for the following week, and she was extremely kind from the start. She answered all my questions and was genuinely friendly. She’s 28 and I’m 23, and I even asked if my age was okay with her. She replied: “Oh yeah of course, it’s no problem at all. You are more than welcome 🤗”
The next day, completely out of the blue, she even sent me a video of the hotel room to show me what it looks like, which no sex worker has ever done for me before.
I also asked whether sex was included. She said it could be added as an extra, and from what I know from reviews/others, she apparently almost never offers that. Usually it’s just the massage + condom blowjob as an ending for extra, so that surprised me.
Anyway, I booked an appointment for about a week from now, but I’m honestly really nervous.
The main thing is guilt/insecurity. I’m not terrible looking, but I’m definitely not attractive either (at least in my opinion). And with her being that pretty, even though I’m paying well, I can’t shake this feeling that she might secretly find me disgusting or think, “Oh no… why did this guy have to book me?” when she sees me in person.
For context, I’m very hygienic. I shower daily, I’m clean everywhere, shaved, etc. So hygiene isn’t the issue. It’s more this feeling of being judged or making someone uncomfortable.
I also want to clarify: I’m not looking for a relationship or trying to find a girlfriend right now. That’s not where I’m at in life. I’ve been dealing with pretty extreme joint issues after being diagnosed with Ehlers-Danlos syndrome (basically joints dislocating very easily). I used to be very muscular and fit before all this, but I’ve lost most of my muscle and confidence because of it.
I’m not overweight at all — actually on the thinner side — but honestly, sometimes that almost feels worse to me with how I look now.
I guess my question for SWs is: do you actually feel grossed out or uncomfortable when a client isn’t attractive? Or am I massively overthinking this? Especially if the person is clean, respectful, and hygienic?