How to train myself to enjoy my dom
So my dom would like if I could swallow his load. For context, we’ve been together over 20 years, we are married. Years ago, I could swallow and it was no problem. Funny enough, he completely forgets this. Said I never did. He’s not a bad guy I just don’t know how he forgets. Anyway, I remember when it all ended. I was giving him head while he sat on the couch and I was in very uncomfortable seated position so I was very hunched. He went to deep, I gagged and fully vomited on him. It was all a bad angle. After that couldn’t swallow again. We went through a hard time and weren’t intimate for 2 years. I explored my feminine submissive side and was able to verbalize it to him some, then with the help of smutty books, were really diving in and I am thrilled. I feel like I am getting what I need. But I can’t swallow. I know what will help and I expressed it to him but it’s like he thinks this is a trap or something. How do I help him understand what I need? I’m not joking. Like a reward for being a good girl if I swallow. But he doesn’t try.
Maybe I’m just looking for support, I don’t know. All body fluids gross me out now really. I love the idea of spitting in my mouth but I gag. I was even thinking of hypnosis. I would be completely okay with that but where to start?
Thank you for reading. I’m new here.