How does one go about exploring dynamic based kinks on their own?
I've been wanting to explore ageplay. I have a lot of childhood trauma and my therapist recommended it to me and I think it would be a really great way for me to reclaim my trauma. Problem is, I'm having a really hard time getting into little space. Mainly because I need that dynamic of being cared for, and slowly lulled into it. Otherwise I just don't feel safe on my own. A lot of my trauma stems from not having a proper caregiver, and not having my needs met. And my main draw to ageplay is the aspect of having someone who can take care of me, guide me, and help coax me into that space. But... I don't have anyone who can do that for me. All of my friends are either subs/littles themselves, or not into ageplay in any sense.
Since I don't really have anyone to act as a caretaker, and fetlife has been atrocious for me (might be a Midwest issue), I'm not sure what to really do. Most everything else I'm interested in,I can do solo but I'm not sure how to fulfill that dynamic on my own. I'd love some suggestions!!!