I wish I could remove my genitals
More of a vent I guess, I wish i could cut them off. I hate it, I hate how they feel all of the time and it only goes away momentarily when I do anything, I'm tired of being like this and I'm ruining my partners life because they aren't very into sex all of the time due to different drives and I just want to not feel aroused all of the time, I want to just be able to be normal and I wish that I didn't think about sex all of the time and I wish I could just stop. My partners thinks all I think about is sex but half the time it's not even voluntarily it just comes into my mind and I can't get rid of it until I have sex or cum. I'm so tired of myself, I don't want to think about it all of the time, I want to be able to distract myself but the physical sensation won't leave me alone, I just want to be normal and not have my life run around when the next time I can have sex is. It ruins my life, it ruins my relationship. I make them uncomfortable constantly and I've said I will stop but it's like I can't help myself but make a sex joke or ask to have sex, I just want it to stop. I don't know what to do anymore, even if i do cum everyday it doesn't go away, after every time we have sex or I cum I feel worthless, I feel so shit about myself and I just runs in a loop. I don't know what to do.