Accidentally tried cnc and loved it…where do I go from here?
I’d like to preface this by saying my partner is great and this was 100% consensual. This past weekend, my partner and I kind of stumbled into something I would consider mild cnc of some sort . Ive noticed over time that the more I tease him and refrain from having sex with him, the more forceful and rough he is with me, which I love. However, this past weekend, I had been joking with him for over a week that he was on “sex ban” due to a joke he had made previously, and refused to give in as easily as usual, while constantly teasing him in small ways. While we were laying together, I began to touch him lightly, but every time he tried to initiate, I’d stop and claim he was still on “ban”, and at some point I guess I pushed him to the edge because he ended up forcefully getting on top of me, forcing my clothes off, and using me despite my (very clearly fake) objections…and I LOVED IT. He also made a comment during about how “I pushed him to this point and he didn’t care if I called it rape or assault, I was his” and I haven’t been able to get it out of my head since. It awoken something in me I didn’t know I was into, which now leads me to my question, how do we further explore this?? Neither of us have any experience with cnc or anything in that realm, and the thought of roleplaying a whole scenario feels a bit intimidating. Im not really sure where to go from here, and I also don’t want to move into it too fast, as my partner is very new to kink in general, and it’s taken a LONG time to get him to even start being rough with me without feeling guilty. He seemed to enjoy it as well but I know he would be hesitant to actually play out a scene. Any advice is appreciated!