u/UnfilteredTempt

- Have you ever tried rough anal?
- Do you like it when it’s really deep and hard, or do you prefer starting slow?
- What’s the roughest someone has fucked your ass? Did you take it all?

I mistankly sent my nudes in my friend’s group chat.

I felt so ashamed at first. My face was burning hot in embarrassment. I kept thinking how they all saw me naked. That strange mix of humiliation & arousal hit me hard.

I realized being exposed like that turned me on. Thats how I found my kink.

Back in my early college days, I had this group of five best friends (3 guys and 2 girls including me). We were super open about sex stuff and the guys would sometimes share porn with me.

One night I was at a family wedding party and it was already super late. My friends kept spamming me for an assignment that was due the next day. My phone was about to die with just 1-2% battery left. In a total rush I quickly grabbed whatever photos I saw and sent them all at once to the group chat without even checking. Then my phone completely died.

The next morning when I charged it and opened the messages I was absolutely horrified. With assignment I had sent them nudes. There were even a few pictures I had clicked while experimenting with being naked in the backyard.

God I felt so ashamed and embarrassed at first. My face was burning hot and I wanted the ground to swallow me. I kept thinking how they had all seen me completely naked. But at the same time... something else was happening. I was getting strangely turned on knowing they had all seen me completely naked. That mix of total embarrassment and unexpected excitement hit me hard. That strange mix of humiliation and arousal hit me hard.

That one stupid mistake actually awakened something in me. It was the first time I realized being exposed like that turned me on. I think that’s where my exhibitionist kink really started.

I’ve been in this lifestyle for ten years now. I’ve tried so many things, public play, flashing, humiliation, degradation, threesomes and group sex, pretty much everything. And most of it I really enjoyed.

But lately I can’t stop thinking about CNC and rough play. It’s been a deep fantasy for me for such a long time. The thought of being slapped, taking light punches, really rough sex and all that intensity… it turns me on like crazy. Still, whenever I imagine actually doing it, doubts creep in.

I had some really bad experiences with wannabe doms in my early days. That stuff left me careful. These days it feels like there are even more of them around, acting like they know what they’re doing when they clearly don’t. It makes me nervous.

I do want to explore CNC properly, but only with someone I can truly trust. Without that, it can get risky so fast and that scares me. I’m not sure how to plan something like this the right way. How do people even set it up safely? What should I keep in mind before we start? The slaps, the roughness, everything… I want it, but I need to feel safe too. Has anyone else felt this way? How did you make it work?

Back then I really thought anal was something I would never ever try in my life. The idea alone made me nervous and I always said no way when anyone brought it up. But in my early days of exploring kink I met this older guy through a bdsm community group and we started talking about what we both wanted to experience. We took our time with everything. I spent a long while prepping myself carefully so it would not be too rough on me.

When we finally did it he went really slow at first and there was definite struggle along with some sharp pain that made me gasp and hold my breath. He stayed patient though and kept moving in a steady gentle rhythm until the discomfort started to change into something else. He fucked me good and deep once my body relaxed more. The fullness felt surprisingly intense in a way that surprised me completely. When he came inside me I felt this warm rush that actually turned me on more than I thought possible. Now I sometimes find myself craving that same sensation again even though I was so sure I would hate it forever.